Reality is, you yourself think your current situation isnt real!
Funny la u, from your posts u only think about getting back your money and surprise surprise, u gambled again n only dig deeper. I see i also smile lol.

Keep on digging la my friend. When u cant dig anymore, u might have to run away. This is the road usually taken by gamblers like u. Just another statistic.

Only one will keep u away from gambling is yourself. When u decide to be strong is up to u, as u do have all the tools, advices, other peoples experiences to help u.