But my problem right now is that I talk too little, sometimes I talk a bit then awkward silence. So how? Have to learn how to do interesting monologue?

ok got it, if i am in date with her i just let her talk and just chill out, easy enough. usually when i talk to her shes the one monologuing, because everytime i just ask her about school stuff and she always has a lot to say. but then the problem is even when i try to small talk with her usually a bit awkward as well, can tell from facial expression she does not really enjoy talking to me, probably just okok no feeling, how to fix? i can try to joke but only when other ppl are around since i have more material to build on, if im the only one there then dont know how.

actually very often my conversations with friends is just 1 line interjecting jokes when other ppl are talking, i really have to learn

Cibai u so pro then what would u have done in my shoes. Suddenly this girl u like look damn tired as shit, she don’t even say hi to u, and at this point this is all u know. Oh I know, I go buy pain medicine for her! She could just be stressed, or actually don’t want talk to u, etc. this time it’s not even guessing that she doesn’t want to deal with ppl, she’s been alone the whole day, and doesn’t say hi.
And, if you had gf before, or even cared to google, period cramps can last 3 days.
And, if you know 1 thing about women, is that the say no but mean yes. She say she ok dy when I text her, use ur big brain to think what that means
If you’re thinking, you could have talked to her that day instead of texting! I’ll tell you exactly how that would have went. I go up to her, ask r u ok? Then she pretend sleep. That’s it, end of interaction. She already pretend to look at the cat nearby when I walked past. What makes you think it would have gone any different?
Also if you’re thinking I could have bought the chocolate at the same day. I can win the lottery today also what, just have to buy the correct numbers. How to know the correct numbers? Tomorrow they will say.
Ok not giving her is my fault la. I didn’t see her at all that day, should have texted to see.

Ok done I just finished dinner with her y’all happy?  but mostly talked about academic stuff. got talk about what she want to do after graduation. At first we talked about couples in our grade. Then she asked me whether I had anyone I liked. I told her, ppl in my year, not really. Crucial thing is ppl not in my year.

But now I know I am ok dy, she is a friend. But I think I should have been a bit more gentlemanly and helped her with her tray after finish. But still ok. Now to break out of friendzone. How?

i think if i ask her out the next time i see her might be a bit too fast? im not sure whether she likes me back i think i should ask her out for dinner again to confirm before i try to ask her out for a real date. but this time no pretence, just wanting to spend time with her

but whatever happens i will try to take ur advice and give both of us a chance to be direct. now the only thing i want to decide on is how long to wait, because if i ask the next time i see her then feels a bit fast, but dont want miss the chance if i dont see her again this week
from what i gather it is very possible she likes me back, but i want to be safe just in case im being delusional. it could very easily be the other way around also, she might just be treating me like a little bro

eh asked her out again, same place same time. this time she very busy and tired, so not that good at gossiping. one problem is that last time i mentioned i like this girl we both know a bit, and i told her the only reason why i dont go for this girl is because a friend interested already. but this time i told her, the guy give up, then she ask me why i dont go for her? could be telling me to f off, or could just be bewildered at why im interested in her instead of the other girl. i didnt know what to reply, i just say dowan la.
or is she actually giving me a opening to tell her that i like her? idk maybe next time she brings it up i hint a bit lor.

but ok since this time she a bit more tired, less acting, can see what she actually thinks, and what she interested in. i take notes, think about it a bit,  ltr will text her about the things she talked about but i didnt give a very good answer to. good thing is i figured out what she likes to talk about. so if conversation ever gets awkward again i just ask her something related to it then problem solved

as to confidence and making myself attracting fish la, i think im ok? this time i just walked up to her, grabbed her attention and asked whether she free. i got exercise regularly, i have been told that i am funny, lots of good jokes, am somewhat tall. the only thing i think im missing is that i am so concerned about being funny that i am bad at serious conversations, which is the only thing she does

as to making intentions clear, i think its best if i take it slowly but not too slowly because she mentioned that she got relationship issues in the past, and hearing from friend gossiping she really sensitive to it. so better ease it in la ltr accidentally hit a landmine. but to make use of this, i will try to empathize with her, and validate feelings, etc since she actually is really sensitive, no experience type. in this forum would be called a strawberry lor.

the highest form of freedom is being unbiased or unattached towards anything, I'm actually ashamed by the fact I claimed being beta is completely wrong in the past, but this is just the route of life that's unavoidable

faggot alert here.

the only thing you attract more than girls is homo bros.

i have continued texting her over the past few weeks, mostly about philosophy since thats what she likes to talk about. at first it was hard to stay sane but now i think ok, more jaded, no feeling dy. so i think since she doesnt mind then i continue stay as friend first then see how. since friend only nothing stopping me from finding another girl.

one thing i was right about was that she sees me as a junior, since previously the dynamic was she keep explaining thing to me. i thought i was doing the correct move by being a good listener, so now i am changing my approach to be more confident. i am expressing more of my views to her so i seem more independent and capable, so far through the texting.

but i think something i said a few days ago really pissed her off since she left me on read. so i texted again, not apologizing but i think more like explaining my reasoning for saying the thing i said. been 2 days so far. see whether she leave me on read again. i wont see her until next sem start at end july. im sure something will happen before then, but have to see.

but also somehow i feel that shes the kind to get a kick out of rejecting ppl. if thats the case, and if i dont mind being a total sohai, i should keep being friends but at some point when friendship solid dy, then suddenly ghost her. maybe ill try, but idw hurt her. but only if she wants to be friends, but idk.