They have been dating for ages. For donkey years.
They were the first for each other. They had gone through a lot together. Their family knows each other. They are more like friends. Best friends.
True. Im the distraction. I provided her shoulder, listening ears, sympathies and my heart. She cling to me and i became her air under the water.
Im still in pain

I still see her daily life in instagram. We dont talk anymore but i know where she is going and what she is doing. She wants to meet this Saturday.

I dont know if i should meet her

You are right.

I dont socialize much because im a shy guy. I dont know how to talk and i feel i always offend people. I made her cry a few times already when i propose to break up.

I brought it up again a few days ago, and she cried again







I think this is nothing about being fair or unfair

She is someone’s wife, Im the third party. The homewrecker. Lekaki durjana, bangsat, whatever society wanna call me. I want her to be happy and move on.



She just can’t let go, and I have tried to tell her that it is better to continue her good life, and leave me alone.

I hate this feeling that tug on my heartstring. I wish im a robot. Just a simple binary YES or NO. Just 1 or 0.