I am 29 years old, married with one child. Education only SPM level without relevant working experiences.

I am here trying to source for any light in my world of darkness although i know i screw up and don’t deserve pitiness.

I was feeling suicidal frequently and started to be physical abusive toward my wife. Wife isn’t supporting enough and isn’t reliable during my tough time, even destroyed much hope of survival for me. I might also end up a single father soon without career and education. Everyday i hope that i would’nt wake up from my sleep.

My family business had been shut down since a years ago and my dad is now a bankrupt. I spend my entire 20s playing games which made me now a introvert. I do have some basic experience in web coding, managing servers, server security as i own a private game server.

However, i do not have passion in coding. I think it is boring and i can’t do it longterm, server security may still interest me but i am not very sure on that and I do have interest in automation machine such as those in manufacture factory.

Luckily, i still have around 150k of savings without debt.

I understand that i can start simple business such as hawker stall, as i do not fear hard labour. But i am a lot more interested in having a stable paycheck monthly. I also can’t do sales as i can’t speak fluently.

The question is, if i were to go back to study, can anyone suggest some of the university courses that can help me to have high chance to secure a job, and have still have a bright career prospect at the age of 34?

Given the fact that i wasted my 20s and the current economy situation, should i just give up the idea of studying and venture into basic business like hawker instead, since i know for a fact that most if not all the employer will just toss the resume of a 34yr freshman without working experience into the trashcan.

Or can anyone suggest me some of alternative path that i can take at the age of 29? I am very lost here and would greatly appreciate if any of you could share some knowledge to help me.

Thank you very much in advance Mr/Mrs.

Hi, i just came back as i am afraid to even read the response that i will get in this thread.

Thank you all for your knowledges, advices, kindness. I read every single of the post, some post also helped me a lot. I will update my status.

I used to disbelief about depression, now i know how it feels. I feel extremely sad, like the end of the world every morning after i wake up everyday.

I feel i could die anytime if something trigger me, i must salute my brain still managed to keep me alive until now. I don't have any energy or motivation to do anything. I also completely lost interest in gaming. I try to get back to gaming to cure my depression, but i can't even get myself to game more than 10 minutes.

For your information, i am not a hot-tempered person, the only time which i would get mad is when someone is doing something really out of the world repetitively. I asked her to understand the situation which we are in, asked for her help to improve the situation, she would still tik tok all day and refuse to provide any support. This has been ongoing for several months.

I know very well in advance that it is wrong to abuse my wife, i just couldn't control myself as i feel like i am only few step from attempting suicide at that point. I spoke to my wife, apologized, and i told her it is okay for her to leave me as i felt like a complete failure. But shes willing to give me a last chance. She also took the initiative to improve our situation by selling women apparels online.

I refuse to visit therapist, it is not cheap and won't solve my problem entirely, i am trying to save every cent i have.

Some of you asked how i have 150k saving, my mom used to give me allowance every month to my piggy bank. I don't pay for anything other than my gaming expenses. Is 150k a lot? Maybe at age 29 its decent amount, i thought most 30+ worker will have 1xxk~ saving easily, maybe not cash saving but most should have some kind of investment like house mortgage or businesses.

For people who say they are failure compare to me, you are not, at all. You have education, you have working experience, or at least decent businesses. Me, my saving is not sustainable, no education, no working experience.

Right now, i am trying to help to get my wife's business to at least cover our living expenses and with some saving. Hopefully that will cure my depression, which i believe is the biggest problem for me right now.

After that i would start to self learn some on demand IT skills then i try to apply job, while looking for oppoturnity to setup some small business. And if i managed to get hired at the field i desired, i go for part-time study.

I would like to stay away from being a programmer, i don't want to die from overworking, serious. My dream is to be a pilot, i dropped that idea completely as i know my health is not in good condition.

Can someone share updated knowledge, for Malaysia market, which IT field is on demand and doesn't require intensive coding? Except Network, Security, DBA, Cloud(aws,azure,google).

Maybe can suggest me which field i should get in base on my experience below.

My beginner knowledge in IT, all in web linux, game customization handle by other people, for windows i can handle most normal user usage. Shame, i put in spoiler.



Thanks!

RE:all - I myself don't cook, so i don't know how far i can go in this field. Imagine cooking good food, people satisfy and i can make money, win-win. I may give this a try by first cooking at home after i recover from being sick.

ishouldntcare123, Didn't know such whatsapp group exist, where can i find them?

electron, I think automation won't help much in this situation, better manual. Summore engineering need go to school.

Thank you for the ideas!

I don't have working experience, currently help my wife to promote her small business.

No, i am not.

Bro, i wish to be in your position, have working experience, means everything can still easily turnaround. I don't have.

Got lobang bro? WFH? If it doesn't cause you much inconvenient maybe you can PM me the detail. Please only do it in your freetime. However i am not sure i will commit as i think those job easily replacable by volunteers.

I think my skill still not enough even for intern, but if i proceed to learn, i think i can pick up at at least okay speed.

Yeah, my passion is not in coding, at least not coding for other people. Can't say myself is a coder. I just copy paste and make changes.

Thanks for your advice on business, i already understood most of the thing you mention. But I need a good product to produce within my ability which is limited, or network of suppliers which i don't have.

It is not that i want to think about suicide, it is one of the option. I have wife and a kid, honestly, this is the only reason why i can still type here.

Thank you for the encouragement.

I am on serious depression, of course if i could i wan't to opt for something that have less chance to repeat this situation again.

Is that a entry level job? After have cert can apply? Career prospect? Can you give keyword for this job so i can research a bit on jobstreet?

If that job can lead me to being able to create machine like farm maintainer even better.

Thanks!

No work.

Let's hope that we can see the light shine as bright again!

"cissp" can get intern/entry level technical job without uni cert? Not those pc support job, more advance like server networking, security etc.

Nice shop bro, really happy for you able to find your direction after quiting your job! You make your own product and sell right?

What do you work as in f&b previously?

Because i no education, no working experience, bad soft skill. Unable to contribute to the family.

This i think need to spend a lot of time to get good right? Will google regardless, thanks!

Shot, i can reply 3 times per day only, quote too much also look really messy, i apologize if some question/concern remain unanswered, but i read every single post.

Currently i felt slightly better due to have some sort of direction already. I realize it is useless if i push myself too far, zero productivity. I am just gonna do it step by step, as some advised here, and i need to get back to at least light gaming. Next time, fail or not, at least i've tried.

Apart from helping my wife's business, i am thinking to develop some IT project from scratch, project that can possibly make some money, with industry sought skills. I need to speed up in improving my skills as i am already late, if i work full-time now even just job like MCD, i believe i won't have enough time or energy to improve my skills fast enough, worst is if stuck in routine job.

I've searched a lot on job websites, scary. Full stack, proficiency in PHP etc paid 3-6K, i don't know what they expect but those skill set description looks like senior-expert level which should worth a lot more than the salary they advertised.

I will be having some question about working in IT, once i research most that i can, i will PM some bros in this thread who seem to work in IT field. I hope you would provide some guidance for me in your free time.

Bro i feel better now, i try to get back on my feet without having to resort to that, thank you for the information!

Hi, i didn't make any excuse to hit my wife, if you read my reply previously i know exactly it is wrong to hit my wife under any circumstance.

My wife don't leave me, she is giving me a chance.

I didn't feel anything you mention other than being positive sometime, while it is short-lived.

Thank you for the concern bro, i read also your previous reply and i understand. I really don't want to resort to that, i actually feel better now my wife started to be more understanding and i have some sort of direction and realize some hope, she really do things that out of this world for months even after non-stop lecturing to understand the situation that we are in. Still it is wrong to hit my wife under any circumstance and i will not make excuse on that.

Maybe my wording make you misunderstood, my knowledge in those thing is beginner level. Job site entry-level description already looks scary, some sought skill like VMware, windows server, really pening, don't think can learn it while doing my project, while things like cloud still can purposely make use of it.

Actually i am not sure what the industry expect for things like "experienced/proficiency/familiarity" would you mind to describe a little on this? Thanks!

Yes, i want to stop being paralyzed by analyzing, still i will want to analyze before i start. Currently plan to start a IT project, still collecting industry sought skill list and see which skill i can apply in my project.

Those job, even MCD will consume much of my time and energy. I want to up skill and look for better paid job with better career prospect. Better even if i can find business opportunity with my project/new skills.

Hi guys, just some update here.

Currently I am at the lowest point of my life, this girl will really kill, and destroy my life entirely, zero chance of recovery, if I were to let her exist in my life once again.

It is, EXTREMELY,,,,EXTREMELY TOXIC kind of girl.

Slight chance I have, if I make this person no longer exist in my life once and for all.

I already tried my very best to educate her countless times.

Today, I make her to fuck off. From my life. At a place that nobody can find me, apps, phone off.

The kid miss his mom, but I had to fake my smile to tell him everything is okay.

Currently my plan is to pursuit diploma, try my luck to get a job, and pursuit part time degree.

Ageism is rampant in IT that I know, but I will not go wash dish just to stay alive.

I would like to at least give myself one last push.

Only motivation to kept me alive is my son.

If god does exist, I hope I will be blessed for a chance to be truly alive again.

Intake deadline latest is by tomorrow I guess, I hope university will permit a few days, or a week of late admission as I really need sometime to set myself completely ready for the challenge, it is gonna be real tough.