Hey, this is not my first account obviously and I'm stating this just in case anyone think that this is just another joke made by another dupe. I made this account because some people here I know them in real life and I don't want anyone in my real life to find out about this.

I've been feeling an overwhelming amount of negative emotions for quite sometime since few years ago. This was due to some personal reason that I won't disclose here.

Sometimes I would feel very upset and want to hide myself in the bedroom and cry, while feeling like there's a big stone pushing my heart and I'm not energetic at all, tho I would try my best to act like there's nothing wrong when I'm working.

Sometimes if I'm doing well then I can still feel like a normal person.

A lot of times when I'm doing something i would expect the worst possible outcome to happen. For example, if I was assigned a task I would think of what would happen in the worst case scenario and keep on worrying that would happen. I've once worried that I would get sent to the hospital due to food poisoning after I used flour that was on my clean table to make bread.

Sorry if this seems messy as my mind is a mess now.

6-8 hours a day but I will keep dreaming and will wake up at least once.

I have no confidence in myself, I always doubt myself in everything and require confirmation from others.