Hey, this is not my first account obviously and I'm stating this just in case anyone think that this is just another joke made by another dupe. I made this account because some people here I know them in real life and I don't want anyone in my real life to find out about this.

I've been feeling an overwhelming amount of negative emotions for quite sometime since few years ago. This was due to some personal reason that I won't disclose here.

Sometimes I would feel very upset and want to hide myself in the bedroom and cry, while feeling like there's a big stone pushing my heart and I'm not energetic at all, tho I would try my best to act like there's nothing wrong when I'm working.

Sometimes if I'm doing well then I can still feel like a normal person.

A lot of times when I'm doing something i would expect the worst possible outcome to happen. For example, if I was assigned a task I would think of what would happen in the worst case scenario and keep on worrying that would happen. I've once worried that I would get sent to the hospital due to food poisoning after I used flour that was on my clean table to make bread.

Sorry if this seems messy as my mind is a mess now.

With as little info as you’ve given us, the only safe option is to say “yes, please”

Go to Church. Seek spiritual Guidance.
I am no joke.

Been through this, and found my savior.

Whatever you are feeling, a trained should be able to give a name to it and treat you accordingly.

just exercise run or walk till you sweat for 30minutea, the endorphins released during exercise will wash away all your negative thoughts

Yup.

You have depressiom bro. Seek help.

But tbh, once u realise its imagination, it will all be good. Your mind will be clear as days

Yes.

Yea need to seek help

How many hours you sleep?

There is 2 reasons for mental problems. 1 is nutrition deficiency and the other is really brain problem.
If finding a Psychiatrist is a problem for you, you can start with nutrition and lifestyle see if it can help.
For me, I will supplement myself with good multivitamin, omega 3, magnesium and good sleep, plenty of sunshine and exercise 1st.

6-8 hours a day but I will keep dreaming and will wake up at least once.

Look, just meeting a psych doesn't mean you're mentally ill. They'll administer tests and evaluations first. There's no loss in meeting one.

U juz lost your self esteem and confidence.

You are probably suffering from depression. It won't go away by itself. You need to seek help.

nothing normal from what u describe

I'm not a doctor but it sounds like you're having depression and anxiety. Non of us can diagnosed you online, seek help from the doctor and psychiatrist and i wish the best for you 🙂.

How do you feel about yourself?

I have no confidence in myself, I always doubt myself in everything and require confirmation from others.