It’s okay bro, I was in ur situation a 3 years back. It broke my heart to sell my hulk but i told myself that these are just toys and and toys can always be replaced. Im still building myself up but manage to at least score an air king last year. One step at a time bro. U will persevere ! And that is one reason why I like Rolex as that money is never lost as the price appreciates. Truly an investment