Got once during college years. even if she likes me beyond logic, i can foresee that her family/social circle wont. it's gonna be suffering no matter what we do.

i am a very realistic person IRL. i know my background and what kind of earning i am capable of. cantonese saying "wood door face wood door, bamboo door face bamboo door"

so i cut it short and wish her well. we lost contact although occasionally i still can see her FB postings. still living her rich man daughter's life but i dont know if she is already seeing anyone. no mention of it in her FB postings but from the photos taken it is no selfie. got ppl cature using dslr punya style. so i dunno who could be taking those photos. probably the guy he is dating? cant be tripod-ing herself no?

sometimes questions of "what could have been" occasionally does pop up in my mind. but then again, it's just an occasional thoughts that quickly disappears just as soon as it came.

Nope, of course not although i did have the intention to. i'm a straight guy damnit!

but after some time together, i realise i cant afford her.

we're from 2 different worlds. she may sacrifice abit to fit my world, but i can never fit her world. it's just never meant to be.

so rather than piap and dump, she was too precious for me to treat her like that and we parted on amicable terms.

no pictar lah happened so long ago, i cant even afford a camera-phone that time. Nokia 3310 is still the common college student phone then.

This post has been edited by andrewhtf: Jul 31 2019, 11:15 AM

my anak pun sudah almost 4 years old lah kawan

not i would purposely go and think about her. only occasionally when i come across her once-in-a-blue-moon FB post.

truth be told she was my 1st college sweetheart. that's why ppl say 1st love cut is the deepest. really pure love one. i even met her parents and family. but i can never forget the way her mother look at me. like a dog looking down on people. just call it "cowardice" on my part lah but i know i can never measure up to their "standard". ukur baju badan sendiri.

yup. moving on from the 1st love and then a few other girls later.

my intentions was filled with lotsa horniness, dirty talks, hot steamy sex and aggressive loving.
in short, i was the ugly predator. the bad guy.

that's why i chose her to be a mother to my child

leave the "pure" to the naive. we grow up. we experience. we seek partners based on mutual benefits.

This post has been edited by andrewhtf: Jul 31 2019, 12:25 PM

nope. biological.
u understood it different from what i intended, that's all

aiyoh... you are inferring too much.

first love is special. even if it didnt end up in marriage, it will always have a special place in memory.

wife love is wife love. first love is first love.

you cant be so daft not able to differentiate it, do you?

others in between, let's just say that it was a mutually beneficial short term relationship.

This post has been edited by andrewhtf: Jul 31 2019, 01:22 PM

kinda sad, really

coming from a sad person. kesian.