Hello folks,
My first topic here. I logged into lowyat after quite a long time and noticed that I can now create a new topic on mental health issues. Exactly right then I thought why don't I share my difficulty..
So, here it is...............
I am not an introvert or something like that. I can conduct conversations with complete strangers for hours. Actually my field of job forces me to do so and I think I am good with that. Because people hear me and they try to contact me afterward.
The thing is I do not like to talk to new people. As I was saying, I am very fluent while talking but at the same time a thought is flowing through my brain's vessels simultaneously that "Ugh, I am so hating talking to you, I wish I could stop right now and do nothing, not even saying a word

" But no, I do not do that. All I do is smiling while needed, showing fake worry when needed and all such things to make the conversation beautiful. I know why I do this. I do this because it is needed. It is good to become social and it surely helps later, these good relations.
Do any of you face the same? I really want to enjoy the conversations like the person standing or sitting opposite of mine, I really do.