Did you consumed alcohol to drown out the voice in your head!? If yes, I propose you go outside and meet friends but don't set any expectations because if you become disappointed (the situation that you perceived as didn't meet your expectations could be a normal thing for other people) you might continue to listen to yourself to reinforce that believe. Or if you are not comfortable around friends (read: you got no friends with an ear to lend) you must find something to do outdoor like riding a bike/bicycle or heck even drive your car. Spend that fuel! The idea is you need to get out of that boredom loop. Do outdoor activity often enough and soon you'll find something interesting worth sticking to. This is something you must do yourself. It's good you're reaching out to us (in /k of all places, for god's sake) but you must take a bath, wear something nice and go out now.

Last time my parents told neighbour I work at JKR measuring the road because I went out on my bike so frequently. They didn't realized everyday I was struggling with my own negative thoughts and being out there helped me cope with that lifeless feelings.

Good luck.