I feel you man. If you have to vent it here, I understand too. I have severe depression and I look into self harm too, it happens involuntarily too, but in that spur of moment, it feels right, hard to explain it too. It sort of serve as a replacement for the emotional hurt inside. I don't smoke nor drink. But few times did look in to drinking and smoking just to numb the pain inside. I am not sure of your condition though, it could be some other problem or a combination for a few, only the doctors know. Do get some help from the psychiatrist.

This post has been edited by Richkierich: Mar 7 2019, 10:41 AM