I was seeking to be positive through my entire life. I am so negative until last few months I broke up with my girl causing me to be in severe depression. Life doesn't seems to go well for me, broken family, be in a broke life, homosexual, not having good relationship, all kind of shit. Mental health is a serious issue nowadays. I lost myself, I lost hope, low self-esteem.

Due to being grown up in a poor family, I worked hard to make sure I have bright future, got my Chartered Accountant Certification, earning moderate income. Despite of all these, I still feel unfulfilling. Until recently I changed my direction, found my truth self value, my strengths, my unique talent and I fight so hard for it. To bring myself to next level, I sacrifice my leisure time, my sleep time, lifeless, no entertainment, no joy, going to work and to library every single free time. I knew what is the root cause of my depression and I believe that most people did, because we have lost ourselves, lost direction, lost hope.

I'm still constantly finding ways to boost my energy and motivations up every single day. It's hard and really tough and I have doubted myself, can I really make it, do I really deserve it, even with the hustles that I'm putting in. My dreams are to bring myself up to the next level of abundance life, to help my family, my friends that suffering from jobs, to help those that abandon at the dark side of the society, doing charity to help more and more people.

In spite of not being support, loneliness, heart broken, and still no result to prove but I still convinced that I have to breakthrough it, I wanted to be a great person that bring values and commitments to people surrounding me and to the world but it's really hard and tired to lift myself up day and days. I need energy, motivations and positive mindset. If anyone have good ways to build a persistence and sustainable strong inner self, appreciate that you can share it to me as I really believe that human should be ashamed to die without contribution to the society. Live full and die empty is a good phrase.