QUOTE(Jorcy Gale @ Dec 27 2017, 04:16 AM)
Hello, I got a story to tell you guys about my game addiction. I'm turning 20 next year. I'm jobless and a college dropout. I spend way too much time on playing games, like Dota 2, MMO or any online games that has anything to do with socialize. I'm also an introvert which I don't really like to spend my time outside and making friends. I've lost a lot of friends recently due to staying home 24/7 and yeah, I'm at the stage where you depress and full of anxiety. I spend around 17 hours alone on computer, and another 7 hour on my bed. I'm getting skinnier each month and lost appetite all the time. Also I am a heavy smoker, a pack a day, usually U2 or any type of cheap cigarette. Yes! I'm lazy as hell, you could say. I'm never motivated to do something and no will to live. I'm afraid whats going to happen to me for next 5 years. I tried my best applying jobs online, like MauKerja, Jobstreet and etc. I never get a call or a chance for an interview. I always think that I'm so good at playing games until I kept or dreaming playing for esport, which is a very risky move honestly. Without a 2nd plan of career in my life. I might as well be homeless for next 5 year. I can't keep asking for my parents money and should start earning by myself. I'm anak haram for sure man, yikes. I would be grateful for some encouragement and advice on what should I do next, or steps in order for me to get back to my normal human life. I'm very jealous of my other siblings and friends earning their own money without help from their parents.
Hope you guys can understand well what i'm writing, especially the grammar. Sorry!
20 years old is still very young, try slowly quit smoking (you'll realise how much you'll be able to save), find a work, even if its a 1k salary work, its ok, save 200 each month, 800 for your use, or if you can save more even better.. don't like to work physically? since you spend so much time on computer, try to find computer related job?
don't worry, a lot of people who finished their degree aren't even working in their own specific field, slowly.. get out of playing games, i stopped playing dota a year ago, and recently got back and got divine rank, and it just kinda "meh", don't get me wrong, i still play games.. but sooner or later, games won't be as relevant for you, put it as a hobby.
find a way, get out, sit in the park look at the sky and start thinking of what may interest you, don't think about success that much, think what makes you happy, if you really want to go pro, you're still young, go for it, i am one for experimenting when you're young, as you get experience when you grow up, just remember.. if you start working, you start working forever. take advantage of youth, start juggling your hours, you have a lot now. you don't need to go school to be successful, sometimes just networking is good enough. be kind to everyone around you, who knows one of them might be your path to success.
or even better, find a way to get out of malaysia, and go outside and work for a year or two and learn about other culture, when you come back to malaysia you'll have a whole different perspective of how everything works. don't be worried or envious of people who are ahead of you in life, you're running your own race, not against them.