Try again son.

I know of people personally who retook their STPM as a private candidate many years and did much better and are doing very well today.

The journey of life is long and windy. But it's important to focus on the future

Consider all your options and discuss with your parents to see how it can be managed especially the financial part.

Important to realise why you did not do well in the first place and not to repeat the same mistakes.

Good luck son.