I moved overseas alone (getting things ready for my wife) about 3 years ago. And I can understand how comforting it'll seem to have someone around in a strange and foreign land. I did the same, although we were strictly platonic and I had no other motives. However; her bf (at that time - now husband) and my wife-to-be both had reservations and concerns; so I guess it's a common thing. In the end, we were close but both of us knew our own limits so we were fine.

Thus I understand why you're feeling the way you are. Having gone through suicide myself (twice) when I was much younger; I can tell you one thing. It's the coward's way of running away (and inflicts more damage) as you're trying to take the easy path out of the problem (which you chose yourself - no one else did).

You have to let go and let what's done be bygones. You "sorta" knew that he was already "taken" but allowed yourself to fall for him. Yes; he exploited you, but it takes 2 hands to clap.

What's done is done. You have to accept it and move on. After all; you have to start reminding yourself what made you move and embark on this journey in the 1st place? It's easy to forget things when we get stuck with problems and these things; but you have to remind yourself to always look at the bigger picture.

Focus on your work, and find joy in the 'lil things in life. This is especially important since you're far away and you would have to be responsible for your own happiness. Don't worry about finding "someone"; because you don't just want to settle for "anyone". Focus on what you need to do and keep meeting people/broadening your contacts.

Travel and expand your horizons. Get involved in a good cause/charity. These are all good ways to keep yourself busy and focused.

Good luck.

This post has been edited by glozz: Apr 4 2016, 05:45 PM