I was in ur shoes b4. I became a complete wreck, lost shitloads of weight, became a severe insomniac.

Marijuana helped a lot with the insomnia, it was the best. Xanax was so-so. Remeron was too bloody expensive.

I took all the advice to go out and present myself. I travelled eveywhere, enjoyed myself... but when things became quiet, the pain keeps coming back.

The real cure was when I met my current GF.

Took me almost a year just to climb out of that dark, deep hole... and I will bear the scars for many more years. But I don't care - I hv someone to come home to now!

So... hang in there. Nothing is permanent, there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

That cheating schmuck isn't worth killing yourself over. Heck that piece of shit isn't worth anything. Flush every trace of him out of ur life like he never existed, and look forward to the good things you have in ur life right now.

Best wishes to u..!