I can relate your situation clearly that no amount presence of friends and families can help you through. It is only you who need to bear this suffering for a certain period of time.

Yes, you may attempt some crazy idea to end your life because every second while you still breathing, there will be some vivid memories haunt you and start making you crazy. I've been through that and gone through that many times.

First of all, you make a wise decision to let go of him and now, you just need to be brutal to yourself that there is no going back.

For you, after 3 to 4pm, you are pretty much on your own and you can be crazy about yourself since your mind will pretty much occupied your thought rather than your consciousness.

Psychiatrist only talks you through and help you to make sense on the way of your thinking but it won't help much.

You just need to make yourself occupied by starting venture into something else which is out of your boundary because it will take a huge amount of time to understand that very aspect in order for you to move further.

Emotional issues take long time to recover and it depends on how you make use of yourself on something beneficial or unbeneficial.

Take your time to calm down no matter how crazy your thought is and always seek a partner to accompany you to do on something rather than by yourself.

Let me know what you think about it.