reporting in since my first serious relationship since August 2017.

proposed for marriage but there's a lot of uncertainties and doubts growing within my gf/fiancee as we're both very different individuals and my financial status is not at a comfortable level to most girls and definitely not to her as she's financially much stronger than i am.

i definitely want to pull through this even though it is very difficult.

as justnits mentioned on the previous version, 168km is actually quite short, but at the same time, every weekend traveling has definitely put some strain to my already weak financial capabilities.

Play racetrack is only for the rich earning >RM15k/mo.

Thanks you!

Well, 15k per month may or may not be rich, but we can all agree that you're very well to do.
That pay is easily double if not triple for majority of Malaysians in their 30's-40's

If anything, it almost doubles mine!
(But yes I still like Motorsports despite not being rich lol)

always would be highly subjective

LDR after all, is typically a doom and gloom affair. 

I hv been single since my last LDR. And I think my last relationship lasted that many years was because LDR. 60mins early in the morning, pure quality.

These days, it's more like...I don't mind headache & heartache on stuff that pays. But same headache and heartache on stuff that doesn't. Not really...

Maybe I haven't found the right one, the dating scene back here is more like compounding my already miserable life.
During college days, my time are free. Now, my time is costly. And die die want me to waste it on some princess tantrums.

You misunderstood my statement. What I meant was I had pretty good LDR until the "eventually will need to be together" became an issue.
And progress didn't come in time. Even I was her I wouldn't be convinced.

Back then, an hour of quality time would be able to get me off the bed and go on another day.

I do agree that no matter how busy I am will need sometime off to gather myself. Like Friday.
That's probably a good time to put on building intimacy and connections. Like quality time where my head is actually relaxed and empty.
And I don't find it quality time if my mind is still on "what's the problem", "what's the next step" or "what should I do now".
I agree and disagree. Agree that everyone's time is costly and valuable. But, not everybody value their time the same.

You know some hours of your day worth more than the other right? But not everyone can understand that.

You are not really expecting to put a negotiation on halt just to pick up a call and say "Bae, good morning. How was ur sleep? My American breakfast was great!".

I wish to be able to do that one day; that I'm a position to put others waiting to address my bae and can't afford to walk away. But now, I'm not there yet.
If I do that now, that day will never come. Prioritize wrongly and poor judgement.

been long time since last read this topic  . 18 months, feels much longer.

re relationship;  it gets boring chatting online with friend/s after few months.
esp if no meetups.

mostly rather interact with pple at work. 

Sail through 5 years with bumps and stil counting

It is not sta8 relationship but we often call each other everyday to catch up .. One in MY and another in UK ..

Culture difference is a huge learning curve for me initially .. I maybe rude and culture insensitive but I learn along the way ( which I don't think I change much .. Lol )

Same long term goals and interest + communication + trust is the key

I think culture diff . . for example is common Asian to talk about earnings and age but in other culture is a sensitive matter ..

Also I think I'm rough to him, I know its my fault on the verbal abuse but I'm learning to be better person with him

I'm Asian and he's also mix parentage (British and American Thai) .. much gentle with me too which is what I love about his character and personalities ..

Living in together in long term goal since I'm getting my own place .. perhaps marriage but definitely can't proceed in MY .. Lol

I think it flew by you that both are male.

The previous post missed a 'r' (str8)

I suppose in today age, best to not stereotype/assume.

Personally this is beyond my understanding anyways and I won't pretend to understand lol

I am officially in this club again.....    

yea. Will try to visit her 3 week once. hopefully really working well for this relationship