Hello. first and foremost,  thank you for any helping hands.
I had been an emotional person since I was young. But despite so, i am a person who hardly share anything I've gone through especially my feelings to others. I usually keep it to myself. But I'm always afraid and insecure of telling what I've gone through and why I'm feeling sad to other people. As I am sure, no one will understand and doesn't take it seriously. Which made me even more sad of my life. I had always been struggling with my life and to reach out to people regarding my life. And it's getting worst when my parents divorced at my teen age. Life has not been great. With family, my education, and relationship. And I'm constantly had failure as a result on everything I am trying to achieve. It's taking a toll on my health now. I am as depressive as I can be. Self hating is my game. And I had been isolating myself from people now. I don't find anything happy anymore. And I always prefer to be on my own. I couldnt find any joy with activities. Which made matter worst now as I only think about ending my life and let go of everything. I understand despite what I've told here, no one would understand or even bothered about it.

So please let me know, will befrienders help? And how does it work? I've heard people suggested them for this kind of thing. Will they understand? What would they do to help? Will they judge you? Will it be confidential? Do I have to pay for anything? My financial is not stable either. Thus why i could'nt afford to seek professional help. Besides i am afraid of medication for this.

If any kind soul can help and share their experiences with befrienders, would be appreciated. Thank you. Looking forward to hear some warm replies.