The thing is, christian girls can be quite emo, I can assure you of that. I have had two ex christian girlfriends.

Yeah I am talking about that verse. Yes but some marriages can be quite challenging. I have had two christian friends who underwent divorce. I am not saying you can't have a fulfilling relationship with God, but with marriage and kids, its going to be more challenging.

Bro, pls do pray
1- that whether it be good or bad that I can patch up with her, that I can see God's bigger plans for me
2- If I can patch up with her, pray she don't give unreasonable demands, and I don't behave insecure and pushy for faster replies
3- Pray that God grant me more exciting life ahead. I am feeling bored and heart sinking. I want to be surprised by life.
4- Pray if my reconciling efforts to patch up with ex doesn't work, God will help show me more nice christian girls that I can feel attracted to
5- Pray that I put God in center, continue to serve and be blessing to everybody

All 1) 2) and 3) will confirm that I am a pity partier, unattractive and a person in denial. Maybe you guys think I am such and such. And yeah, in the past I have had friends who got fed up with me and never spoke to me again. They think I am a loser. Maybe I am.

But let me explain and maybe you will say I am making excuses. I have mental health problems. I easily get anxiety problems. I am unable to face the pain of rejection. Durin my first break up, I tried to do many things to forget about it, tried to pick up hobbies, go to church and be active. But it didn't help. Because I am suffering from anxiety problems. I am not going to reveal what I have...because its P&C but I suffered from mental health problems so bad that I had to go phychiatrist to seek medication.

Now I am reliving that with my break up. I am having another anxiety attack. My anxiety attacks have surfaced on other situations before, like when flying. Once the turbulence was really bad, and I panicked and sweat like crazy. I was almost fearing that I was going to die.

If this gets worse, I have to go to a phychiatrist. I cannot be living like this permanently.

You ever heard of Robin Williams?

I am not suicidal, at least not yet...but when I have a panic attack, I get into a lot of pain and no sleep. My brain cell activity jump off the charts. When I was a kid, i was diagnosed with hyperactive problems, i had to be sent to the phychiatrist who gave me tranquilizers.

So how does one break it down into manageable pieces?

Yes, just as what you said when you quoted Philippians 4

We should all pray fervently for the peace of God to come among us.

Thanks for your tip on that, I have been able to handle my problem better. Yesterday I slept ok ok.

Now I am moving on...yesterday I asked a cell member if I could help out an org asli ministry, he said he would provide the contact no.

Yaokb gave some valuable advice...now I am feeling better.

My heart was beating a lot...worry all the way before this. Then Yaokb told me to look at things positively, positive faith. Would I be correct to say, whenever I think things will work out for me in God's favour, my prayers be answered?

Yesterday I slept better, I thought of all positive stuff. Like the people whom I know who work hard for God in the ministries, the good things they do, I just thought about it before I go to sleep. I feel I am the driver of my body. I am like driving a car. If I am worried and panic, the car will be swerving left and right. If I am thinking positive and focus on the good stuff and teachings of the Lord, my car is stable.

Yeah, I know the Enemy will try to feed my mind with negative thoughts, especially about my ex. When the enemy told me, hey your ex is going out with other guys...I just block it out and say, so be it, good for her, if she finds someone she is happy with, I am happy...I forgive and let go...I don't own anything, only by God's will he gives me what I need. Perhaps next time when I get into a spiritual attack, I should tell the Enemy...In the Name of Jesus....I bind you and cast out your evil words.

Err, can't play the link, there is error.

Anyway I look for Mark Gungor sermon in youtube? Which one?

Yes I believe God will answer my prayers, i must seek him earnestly. Thanks for our help my brother for bringing the joy of the Lord into my heart. 

Aiyah why we all fighting? We all belong to the same body of Christ.

Remember the enemy is out there. We should focus on building and uniting.

To be honest, for me, my problems won't stop after I met God. I knew it was going to get more serious. Why? Because we live in a fallen and sinful world. Once the enemy know we are servants of Christ, i suppose, the Enemy would focus on blunting the effectiveness of Christ servants. But God will never allow Satan to attack us on what we cannot withstand. With every trial we face, we will persevere and become more stronger and refine like gold refine by fire to get rid of its impurities.

But I am glad after knowing God through Jesus, I have the grace of salvation, God's scripture and the Holy Spirit to guide and protect me.

Don't really know that revelation but I know this revelation.

Before the 10 commandments was given.

Why was it when they complain they had no food to eat and God gave them mana but no one died from complaining.

In the Book of numbers (after the law was given) same scenario but this time they died from complaining.

Why?  Think about it.

Not Break up.

ha you didn't catch my meaning.

Just as Abraham brought forth Isaac by God's power
God can also bring you the right person by his power and thus you know it must be God because  of"rarity". Thus you'll give him the Glory.
Theory? Bro, people can exercise all they want. They can be fit but to attain longevity or good health,that only comes from the Lord. This is a divine fact.

Thks. I must choose Godly thoughts ! I pray that when the enemy try to weaken me with sentimental thoughts, I will cast it away in the name of Jesus. I pray I will not be negative and be more open to God's bigger plans for me, soon he will reveal his rarity choice to me.