If possible, find a girlfriend or a mate that you can talk to.. Like you can spend your time on computer and find people to talk to about your life.. from your information you got nothing to worry about.. money no proble, family no problem and is a top student...is it you're too stress about studies? I have a friend used to suffer from depression because she got no friends to talk to and the reason is because she's a bookworm.. try to socialize and make your life happier... you can take sometime to travel oversea alone or with friend.. find someone who can accompany you, go take a look around the world.. suicidal is not a good idea .. go some country that you wish to visit.. and look at other's people life.. example, go africa and visit the poor child, try to communicate and understand them.. they are fighting to live so dont waste your life. Get your suicidal thoughts away from yourself.. always remember there are so many things in this world you never know about.. Give yourself sometime.. if you still have the suicidal thoughts, please don't afraid of it.. if you dont want to see a doctor then try to communicate with people around you.. dont care what people say bad about you.. try to be someone that appreciate their life because there are people who fighting for their life every second from the moment u read this comment. i'm 17 and i used to have it, and to be honest i've tried it. I almost died but i survived , i never really see hell but i know i regretted doing it. You have money, go travel. You have time, Go use it wisely, do things you want.. you can find me and talk to 0178834613 anytime