Soo.. I've been giving it a lot of thought. There are things which she does really really irritates me. I noticed that, shes more on other peoples needs, other peoples preference, rather than mine.

whatever I like, she just shoves it away. Whatever I decide, she'll be like dont want this dont want that, or what pains me, is when she told me I can't be selfish and ignore what my boss wants, the other senior wants,

Whatever hardship that is so called, I, ME, MYSELF, am putting other people thru is unacceptable to her. But if people do that to me, she silent only, never say anything. Never try to understand also. Instead, asyik want to scold me here n there. Whatever I say also dont want to agree. APA NI 

Other people have to go to work when they already take leave? BIG DEAALL WEIII... BIG DEAAAAAALLLLLLLL.. I also at times will have to do that. If I had to do that, would she care?? Macam no saja? Not my fault also man.

Oh our boss cannot eat this cannot eat that. SCREW THE BOSS LA. Always tell me to decide where to makan, then just follow me la.

Among my favorite place go makan had always been the Shihlin Taiwan blahblahblah the one sell the XXL chicken. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO... DUN CARE WAT I LIKE BECAUSE SHE DOESNT THINK THE BOSS EATS THERE. SPLENDID JUST FANTASTIC. AWESOME. AND THEN SUM MORE TELL ME IM SELFISH i go like SAY WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA??

What she said last night really is playing on my head until this morning. I wasn't in a good mood since then, but I never announce to the world, never show it to her also, DUHH OF COURSE RIGHT.. WHO AM I RIGHT? who gives a shit about me? Lets give a shit to everybody else who dont care for her as much as I do, right? Okay nvmind, let me put up a brilliant poker face and show you that whatever you put me thru, I memang will be okay with coz I LOVE YOU THAT MUCH pfffttttttt *vomitblood*

and what do i get in return? SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN SCOLD SCOLD SCOLD COMPLAIN SCOLD COMPLAIN SCOLD. 

I really needed to rant. To tell someone. Now I damn merajuk 

She rants to me ON A LOT OF STUFF. So in return, I should rant to her too right? but who rants to the other when the whole rant is about the other??
thanks man. I think i wont ever confess. Let me dream a bit longer yeah?

thanks bro.

Okay on the boss part, i knew people would be thinking like this is like, boss of company etc. Its just our team leader, whom I usually call boss. And yeah, this 'boss' im talking about isnt the boss of the company i work for. Just a team lead thats all.

Haha, lawak kan cter aku.. awal2 memang la sume happy je post, baru2 ni je bikin aku panas skit. Semalam la kuar ngn dier tngk movie, ngn lagi sorg kawan dier.. pastu over dinner cakap pasal aku x siapkan kerja, and pasal tu lagi satu senior tu kena datang ofis during leave SEMATA2 nak abes kan keje aku. She din understand the situation, becoz senior aku tu mmg kata dier akan take over. Entah which part dier x paham, still blame aku. Lama2 aku naik emo la, kalau dier kisah sangat pasal org lain, then screw me la isit? Aku pun slalu je datang keje even when on leave, dont see her saying anything about that :/ and i wont deny, yeah memang aku jealous.

Complain and scold? dier bantai je depan orang. well, maybe i exaggerate la. xde la tengking, tapi mcm nagging mak nenek. Penat nak layan. Tau nak bisinggg aje. Everything aku buat ada je nak complain. Kadang2 memang dier messing around, tapi mess2 around pun chill la beb. I have feelings too.

LOL of course la u hear one side aje. How to hear the other side? Hopefully will never hear huh..

anyway, thanks brah. Needed that.

Looks like in my case the 4th quartile represents everything



LOL. OR PROBABLY JUST THE FIRST, PLUS THE SCOLDING.

That meme is missing something after "Married". I know 2 woman in my life, one is my mother and the other is my elder sister. Both of them are scolders but you know what these type of woman do when scolding their partners?

well they are very loyal. When I ask them why the need for scold? because they love their partner.

Not gonna throw fuel here... just that if you feel there is something there. Go and find out, you dont want to be regret of your decision later.

Maybe la bro maybe la. Dont know what kind of 'care' also. I always try to think on the brightside too. But same time trying to be a realist as well.

Hahahaha. Adui. I always go for those out of my league la. Its obvious, im not her type. I am always like this, kuat perasan and emo terlebih.
Anyway, its the first time where I've seen so sooo sooo many positive replies. I am very happy guys. Until my eyes also like getting a bit wet already ahah.

thank you thank you. I truly appreciate your words.

I'll come with an update soon.

lol wtever happened to this Tinder guy? But dude, seriously... this is not the BOSS u guys are thinking.. Its just our team lead, thats all. Not like everything we do has to please him, it doesnt get reflected in our kpi anyways, trust me. Our team lead is someone who, cant really eat spicy things like, well.. spicy things.. he avoids road side hawkers, dirty places, etc. blahblahblah, like i give 2 shits.

my actions make her look bad in front of boss?  huh? wat did i do? Boss ask me where I, ME, MYSELF, want to eat, so boss shud juz stfu and follow me la right? If i have the choosing power, why would anybody else intervene? and on top of anybody, why would she? But seriously, how does what I choose, make HER look bad pulak? confuseeee 
I understand bro. Sometimes hearing it one side sure like vague, blur2, but worst would be the element of bias. But I do try to tone down the story, not exaggerate, to make it as genuine as possible.

but ya la.. how to hear the other side right? U probably would hear a totally different one 

Yeah, I tink im ready to post the due update. Didnt want to post previously because i was paranoid.

Not really an update, but more like a 3 weeks re-collection of it. enjoy.

Aiii if only i remembered

Dude, wat u said really change the way I view it. Din think of it that way at all man. Probably huh.. she getting her revenge, so whack me there la. aiyaaa...

Y must i forget la.. shits.. Yea, memang cuba bersabar pun... but lately, kalau aku x tahan aku fire je.. pastu lama2 ok la.. hahahahahaha...

How la bro, cudnt already.. she was holding my phone and she was navigating already sum more go and drop my phone in the car and made us lost for half an hour hahaha.

Xpe lah, tomorrow, is a senior colleagues sisters wedding. I just thought about it, she doesnt have any transport, so I will definitely be offering.

Plus, last night went to uptown shah alam do a bit of shopping, bought new shades, jeans and shirt. Will try to dress like as if it was a date. Sum more if really la could pick her up, wanna make it feel like we're going

out on a date bwahahahaha. will update on that tomorrow night.

okay. short update. Just things which happened on whatsapp.

First things first, yes. I WILL BE PICKING HER UP FROM HER HOUSE TO THE WEDDING XD

Heres what happened:

Me : How u goin for tomorrow?
She : Driving
Me : U know ur way meh?
She : GPS lar.
Me: techy. Or else roll with me, wants?
She : Hmm, pick me up from my place?
Me : yeap
She : its out of the way la doesnt make sense. I dont mind driving.
Me : I dont like driving alone
She : u ar. penakut. Dont need la.
Me : Jauh la, if got friend can borak2.
She : Aiyo, since u really dont like it so much, ok la.

*blahblahblah small talk here n there*

Me : ok2, so tomorrow 6.30pm I fetch u, ok?
She : lmao. U really dont give me chance drive my car
Me : U can drive when u need to
She : U better be damn nice to me
Me : I am wert
She : Puhleasee
Me : ok sorted, tomorrow 6.30 pm

Sorted.

thanks man 

Dunno what will happen today..

I keep getting thoughts that she will cancel last minute.. I mean, cancel going with me la.

Hopefully that doesn't happen. Or if it does, I think I'll just be proud that I tried. And willingly say, "haha ok la ok la"

Cheers. Have a nice day everybody.

woah. ni memang pro tip nih.

see la how yek.

thanks man, as always.

hahah thank you thank you..

haha aisey bro.. after that last whatsapp last night.. I really sked to ask her straight away >< I really shud have just said it when I had the chance.

Now I really feel like dont want to contact her or anything. The only way I would be comfortable to contact her again is only when she contact me first pfffttt...

I really shudnt have said that la.

This is based on my experience. I went through somewhat like your situation not wanting to rock the boat and keep telling myself not to say anything because worry our friendships might end up badly or that I can't face the fact I will lose him even as a friend. And stupidly enough for almost 10 years both of us didn't know we actually had the very same feelings towards each other.
Although for my case fortunately I had a happy ending story cos somehow we managed to get it together in the end and we are now a couple but that is 13 years later. All these years we could be together we wasted it. I guess I am very lucky or perhaps I am destined to be with him.
But looking back there were many times where we could easily let go of each other and never realize how much we meant to one another.
I guess my point it somehow you have to accept that eventually all this drama has to end and you both need to go to the next step. Why not figure it out together and get clarity on the issue rather than dragging it on. It's not healthy on your and I'm sure for her too.
Haha sorry for the long winding story here. Hope it helps!

no worries man. know ur busy.

Yea.. tiba2 saje. seriously dont know why.

But deep down, certainly feels good kena marah like that. I am a bit messed up.

Tsundere characters my taste yo. HAHAHAHA

Its okay braah. Juz keeping you all updated

Even until now I still think theres sth else behind her throwing a fit.

Because the way she described it, as if there are so many parts left out. Dunno why >< wish that its nothing to my disadvantage.

Actually theres been so many times when I ask her if shes got a problem, she tells me about it,

but leaves certain important parts out.

I read your first and last post only. So, she likes you or not?