i cant sleep during night and i always get my sleep in the afternoon, and even that i still didn't sleep continuously for hours, i sleep for like 1hour then wake up again, then take another sleep for another 1 hour and repeat again, i have this habit since i were young, i once told my parents but what they said is i used to sleep in the afternoon, hence, i cant sleep in the night, but this is not true at all, sometimes i can sleep in the night but sometimes i cant, if i used to sleep in the afternoon, that will be like a habit for me to sleep during the day, work during the night, but the problem im having now is, i MUST sleep during the afternoon, and sometimes i can or i cant sleep during the night

the reason i cant sleep at night is also weird
here are the list-
-i must go to the toilet to pee even though i don't feel like peeing, i have a weird feeling like i scare the feeling of going to pee will disturb me when im resting.therefore, before i fall asleep, i go to the toilet for like 4-5 times
-i must cover myself with blanket even though the weather is hot or the room is hot, it has nothing to do with the temperature, just that i must cover myself with blanket, reason? i scare ghost touching my skin, and mosquito as well
-if i sleep on a mattress i must always alert the mattress to attach the side of the mattress to the wall, i don't know why i have this feeling, but i must attach it to the side, that's why once my body moves, and the mattress moves a little, i must push the mattress attach to the wall again

these anxiousness made me can't even sleep, and i will keep thinking it over and over again

for your information, the anxiety not only happens when i'm off to bed, it happens all the time

this including i always check the tv, fan, water not switched off or closed, i recheck and check many times fear that those electrical devices will leave it on and cost a lot for electrical bill, every time my family especially my mom goes in to the room, after they leave the room, i tend to go in and check the fan, tv, tap water, my mom also noticed about since when i was young, around age 7-12 i couldn't remember when is it

and also i only use 1 spoon fork and plate in my house, this means that i don't share the same spoon with my family, i have my own spoons and forks, reason? i have a feeling like sharing spoons and forks are dirty, so last night when i was having my dinner, i found out that my spoon is twisted and crooked due to some reason, i force to use the spoon that used by all of my family members, i didn't enjoy the dinner and i keep worry about the spoon, even until today, it's like a feeling like there are worms in my body, i know those kitchen stuffs have been washed with soap, but i still worry something, something that is inexplicable,i just worry there are small bacteria in the shared spoon, also, i don't eat chicken, pork and seafood as well,not that im vegetarian , but i feel like these foods are dirty, i do eat beef, im a chinese

these are the sort of things i can think of right now, these anxiety really bugging me off i think i have some mental problem, should i see a psychiatrist? this happened long ago, but recently it worsens, and i just cant stop thinking all of these and recently some new things add in and keep bugging my mind, im thinking too much and there're so much things bugging me that makes me can't even sleep,some weird of insomnia not due to depression, but anxiety

This post has been edited by OrangCacat: May 14 2013, 12:22 PM

i don't even touch raw meats, the last time i ate a chicken is few years ago when i was trying out the KFC famous bowl recipe, and that i also didn't finish the foods, even somebody sleep with me, i still tend to have the same worries like with blanket cover, the ghost thingy, the mattress thingy, but the funny thing is during the afternoon, it doesn't bug me that much

i sleep at 11-12 o'clock normally, normally i take 1 hour to fall asleep, whenever i got up in the middle of the night, that's it, i wont fall asleep until my father wakes up at 6am

i just googled the ocd thingy, from what it written in wiki, i have a lot of similar symptoms mentioned in wiki, i don't wash hand oftenly but i whenever go to an elevator, i never even once use my hand to press the button, i use keys, i also walk in patern sometimes, when there are tiles where blind people walk, the yellow tiles on the street, i always walk along with the yellow tiles

is it possible to avoid that without a psychiatrist? i really don't feel like seeing one unless i have no choice, as they don't really affect much of my life, just sometimes i can't sleep because of it

This post has been edited by OrangCacat: May 14 2013, 01:19 PM