there are some songs like beautiful,hailies song,cleaning out my closet,when im gone are depressing..others like not afraid,till i collapse can build a person..well,temporarily 
have to admit..it is..
you people really help me alot ..thanks tonss,

seriously,even right now.. 9:30 AM im holding back my tears , cause shit just feels like nobody understands the way i feel and thats the reason i cant talk to anyone about it...there was even a forumer who messaged me, thank you..like seriously..

im gonna definitely make a stand cause i've had enough of this shit, hate being depressed and in a f**ked up mood in the morning and the whole day goes like that..well it aint like that no more! , im gonna get back to my old friends (good ones) and start doing something...i wanna socialize with people, make new friends and get a life...im gonna do it for real now ...