Dreamer101,
Sorry for taking me a long time to say thank you to you. Thanks for your teaching.
You're right about it. I have no vision. I don't know what I want or what I want to do in my life.

My life is a mess. I have failed to live my own life.
I find it very hard to get back up, or maybe I'm just giving myself excuse not to get back up.
I'm no longer what I was like last time. And the 'me' right now is a failed person.
I know it takes many small steps to get back up. But without goal and therefore lack of motivation,
it's hard to follow these small steps or conquer the small difficulties.
You're right. Everybody know what is wrong with them. And they know the solution to their problem.
They just cannot do it. In my case, I think it's already very painful, but yet I chose to ignore it.
I don't think it will come to a level that it's extremely painful, because if I keep ignoring it,
and at the end I will become a below average people.
I know I needed a change. But how to change completely, so that I won't repeat the same mistakes.
Because the second time I make it, it's not a mistake, it's a choice.
What I got today is what I deserved.

Sorry for my long story and poor english.
Thanks again.