hi guys,

I am a villager guy who came to big city KL to work hopefully can earn money for better life
I am not a good academic achiever (maybe need to blame myself do not fully focus study) and vanish my
family hope to have a university graduate son.
I do not gave up, i further study to take advance diploma.
What I found out that advance diploma qualification do not acknowledge by many companies in Malaysia.
So I end up with the job that do not paid good salary.

I try to save hard money, even sacrifice entertainment.I feel life is not enjoying anymore.
I working hard but end up nothing.
My friend surround me they really successful in their career.Maybe they have choose a suitable career.
I am very worry about future of accounting job even if I have pass my CIMA paper.
I got plan to take additional part time course in open university.
I think I lose hope in accounting job ored as I have gone to difficulties when working in audit firm but not paid well.

As time pass I cant stop of comparing myself to the people surrounding.
I feel like everybody is watching and judging on me sentence me into prison .
As time develop I become people phobia, not dare to see people in their eye when talking with them and avoid social activity.

What I suppose to do?I do not want this people phobia develop into mental problem....T
There are so many thing I want to do...I want to be better man but I feel mentally weak