I know why you feel like this.
Actually, you are confuse, you are doubting.
You must be thinking "IF ONLY" thoughts like IF ONLY im not lazy etc.
So, when people start looking or even stare at you,you easily get down and emotional. The best way is to think positive and please find and mix with positive people.

If you feel that, oh my friends they all successful now but how about me? life not good etc, use that as a step stone, as something that will encourage you to do better. If you feel that auditing with low salary sucks, perhaps you should find something else to do. Just make sure you find something that make you feel welcome and interested. Though,most of the time finding a job or things that make us feel enjoy are usually with a cost. An example will be, you enjoy the job but the salary is low. You need to choose.

Good luck TS,wish you all the best,god bless

In the end, no matter how terrible your country is, you will still say i love my own country. People who usually feel that working outside are all great,they need to experience it first. If youre lucky in outside countries, good for you. But most of the time, is not as sweet and fun how you think it is.