After read all this long message, i just want to say you are a *******. Since already have such perfect gal friend at ur side why still not satisfy with what you own now. Still crush with ur colleague? Are you r guy? Dont you ever know what you do now will harm her and caused a permanent "scar" in her life?

If you cannot done ur part now better dont talk for future. You must know and understand gal each time fall in love will treat that love as her first and last love;last bf;lasting life partner. They will believe what guy say and willing to do whatever to maintain and protect the relationship. What you had done for your ex gf? When problem come just think want to excape, pressure, wan alone ...single but do you know in this relationship how much your ex gf done and sacrifice in this 3 years?

Gal is fragile and less confident in love. To maintain a relationship did u know they need to spent lot of "courage" and "thought" to fully believe her another half? Please think in this 3 years how many "courage" and "thought" had she created for fully believe on you? But what you pay her back is using a knife piercing into her heart which the most vulnerable thing in the world. You know?

As a guy, we need to make sure the one we love always in happy and peace condition. Gal need us to care, pamper, understand what they think, deliver what they want and be a "Peace Harbor" for them all the time. This is the simple plus normal things guy need to done for your lover.  When you had done and understand this all you are just qualify to love them and be their bf. Dont just know to say "love you" & forgot what had promised to gal.

If you still have conscience, dont patch back. Enjoy ur new relationship with ur colleague and Let her walk out from the "darkness". She is not your cloth, not your tires,& not your replacement. If you love/care her, please dont ever n ever try to hurt her anymore. Although she now still wish you come back to her side,but before you patch back please ask urself is that you wont repeat the mistake again? Is that you really can give happiness to her forever?

I wish you can "appreciate" your new lover-your colleague as what you want and also wish ur ex gf can be cheer up a.s.a.p and forget the sadness. W.P, you are not alone. No one can again hurt you.

LeoLim