kids is too young to be asked right now.
love, care, attention is the thing i don know how to give.
i think 1st things i must do is the selfishness. sometimes i felt jealous to see my kids cling on my parent-in-law, wife. jealous that i cant have the time to do that, my parents don have chance to do that. my parent love me the most, cant deny they will also love my kids the most as well. but i unable to do that. i cant even bring kids back to them, let them to pamper the kids.
its true that i am responsible to wreak this family, what i feel i need to do is let the kid feel he actually has a father. even tho, he cant remember what he has done before age of 5 , but he will definateltly asked why i am wasnt in any pic during childhood.
i am not staying with him right now. even tho i still can see him, bring him out, but there is still a lot of things i will missed. how he sleep, how he bath, how he doing homework ....
is doing this will be good to him ? or i just think too much ? in the end, when he grown up, having frens, pretty gf, will he still wanna care if i ever cared for him ?
my fren said i think too much. i am wrong but definately can do some mending.
Zzzzz, then why the f*ck are you still whining here??? Do something quick before you regret, i'm sure you'll know best about what solution you can take