The worst thing is telling your parents and your partner's doesn't understand you. I once told my mom and she straight away brought me to the psychiatrist. Telling the DR that I was crazy. That is the last thing I wanted to hear. As someone who is seriously depressed this is the last thing you would wanna do.

To me depression comes in many ways and many forms. Sometimes I'll be normal sometimes I'll just go crazy and sometimes I'll be very quiet. Few years back I did try some anti-depression pills it did work to stop my brain from thinking too much. After that it kinda stop giving me anything and I couldn't sleep after that so I quit taking them.

I do go to my GP to talk about it and she is very understanding and somehow she chats with me and made me feel better. My kind of depression is that I cannot talk to anyone. I used to write diaries and that is my way of talking out my problems.

I suggest that keep yourself busy doing things that you like. Do not be afraid of yourself. Loving yourself is the most important thing. Don't be afraid to be different. I love myself very much no matter how I look like. I'm not pretty nor have a good figure but I love myself and care for myself very much. I have a few health conditions and telling other ppl like friends even my parents doesn't understand me well which tears my heart apart. To my parents I'm just lazy but to my GP she worries about me and so happy to see me at least she gets to monitor my health.

Another thing is to get proper sleep and rest. Once you get proper sleep everything will get better. If you can talk to someone talk to them. Like me I can only talk to one of my kor, he's not related to me but he is the only one in this world who can help me and who understands me. I don't like ppl who scold me when I want someone to listen to me or when I need advice. I cry easily and I hate it when my dad scolds me when I cry.

I hope that you can overcome this. I'm trying very hard also. Believe in yourself and love yourself more. Do things that you like. Do not be afraid of yourself

You don't have to result to medication if you don't like it. I don't. Eat well and sleep well really helps.

Yeahh I do agree with *fearz* as well. It took me quite a long time to realise this and get things straight. Try not to rush yourself. Follow on your own pace. Do whatever that you feel comfortable with. You don't need to do things that others do just to get in the crowd. I'm a closed up person and it doesn't bothers me. I don't have many friends but I do get along well and am talkative, which is kinda opposite of me when I'm at home. It took me some time to find out that my problems came up from home and my own family.

I do hope that you get to solve your problem soon but just don't rush things. Yea I heard of the befrienders too and wanted to be one of them. Til now I still do not have the guts to call them yet. I'm very picky when it comes to speaking with someone and telling out my problems. I still just talk to my kor only. He's the best

Maybe becoz I'm stubborn so I don't result to intoxication, smoking or gambling or somesort. I do not depend on something unlike some friends whom I know who has a little depression as well. Maybe is just their personality or their will power. It all depends entirely on individual.

You can try writing or somesort. Some people write blogs to release their feelings. I am trying to write blog too but it needs a really big courage of mine to do that. I'm not at that stage yet. And only recently that I found out it's okay to get away and avoid your problem sometimes. I'm the type that alwiz wanna solve the problems myself without consulting anyone. Took me quite long to figure this out. So now when I really can't sort things out I take a break for a while. Go relax and if I can't afford it I just go shopping or just go out for drinks with friends. Just to get my mind off what I was busy thinking about. It helps Building up hobbies helps too.

My depression led to insomnia and it resulted quite a bit. Getting bad health issues and blood disorders kinda bothers me as well. Which is supposed to make the depression worse. I have a slight anxiety as well and a few phobias. I have a phobia of having meals alone which makes me rather eat alone at home. I can't get out sometimes coz knowing that I'm alone and lonely. I cannot handle myself well at crowded places. I have a problem with buying things when I'm on my own.

I hope this helps that you are not alone. Don't worry too much

This post has been edited by j3nny9irl: May 16 2009, 02:02 AM

Hmm Just some ppl who are unsure of what they are facing maybe just chatting first would be fine. Later on when you have a clear picture they will know what to do afterwards.

Like for me, no matter what seeing the psychiatrist still seeing a psychiatrist. I cannot stand the DR jotting down everything when I'm talking. Pretending he's just trying to layan me like that. Sometimes I just cannot stand the way he looked at me. This is how I feel. Some might not feel like this. Oh well I went once and never wanna go again and that cause my mom forced me and she thought I wanted to kill myself. She argued with me and called me crazy. That is one reason why I couldn't talk to my parents. I know them too well which made me kept quiet all these years. I rather write my diary or come online to speak with someone whom I do not know at all.

After all it all depends on individual. This is just my point of view on me

Hmmm I have this very very farnee relationship with my mom. Kinda embarassing to say and it's off topic here

Better not say ler...


EHhh correction... she thought I wanna kill myself only coz she thinks I'm crazy. But I didn't do anything stupid lahhhh I just had a hysteria that day I think.

This post has been edited by j3nny9irl: May 20 2009, 02:40 AM

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