To answer your lame question. You are bloody stupid.

I want to make one thing clear. YOU ARE NOT IN LOVE WITH THIS DUDE. You are ______ years old (likely below the age of 20), and you've had one conversation or never had a conversation with him. You don't even know him.

You need to go out and live your life and stop obsessing. For 4 months you've been thinking about this moron and yet you've been too afraid to talk to him.  That's creepy. Stop being creepy, you creepy stalker.

Oh, and structure your sentances properly the next time. It appears to me that you love having discussions with your own self. Ever watch LOTR? Heard of Gollum, yeah, (i hope) you get my point. Thats bloody creepy.