Hey all...i just broke a 6 years relationship with him... No 3rd party involved...but it's just sadness and loneliness...Alot of things i do reminds me of him...it's a mutual breakup bcoz we cant seem to compromise with each other.
Sometimes i would think if im asking too much? i just need a listener...

i am having a pretty messed up life currently, family probs, career wise...and he left me at such times becoz he feels he couldnt support me in any way and that my depression is making him angry sometimes.
He thinks i should grow-up...
fyi, yes, i admit i do call him in the middle of the night or go to his house without asking him first. that's cause i needed him so much, i needed a listener. nvm...maybe he just doesn't want to be that "rubbish bin" of mine listening to all the craps from me...
i always ask myself will i treat him the same way if he is having a depression or a hard time...after so many things we've been through, he just gave up on me...maybe he thinks he can find a better girl...

Sometimes Im just worried I wouldn't get a good guy who loves me as much as my ex did...
I am someone who would love you and depend on you when i trust you, why do guys always hurt us when we're most vulnerable?
It's all unexpected...

Sometimes i thought i have got over it, but sometimes i still cry at night. I still see his facebook although i've deleted him. and it's quite a bad habit now that i often check him out after the breakup. and his posts makes me hurt. why am i doing that? i am just so stupid....

If u ask me, i am tired and scared to go back to the relationship with him. but i seriously miss him alot. and sometimes i wonder, does this really happening to me? why does it happen? was it just a misunderstanding? i dont know if i am regretting now or it's part of the healing process, where some times u will breakdown....

Pls help.....