in the past few days, i thought i can forget about him and not to contact him but somehow we had some phone conversations and as well chatting over the net. i started to do a lot of thinking if there is a way for us to patch back or may be there is no such thing call patch back.

until not too long ago, i started to wonder what do i really want. i am quite stubborn in this issue, i can see myself willingly to sacrifice everything for him without hoping anything in return. i used to do that but i do not know if it is alright for me to do so. after all i told myself, please let go and no more being a stubborn girl. i do not want to kill myself by being such an idiot in life.

i can not deny the feelings for him is still strong but i can not always make myself so unhappy. i do not know what can i do to save this relationship again or may be it is impossible to be saved but i know i can learn to let go. i do not drop any tears anymore whenever i think of that, is that a good start? i hope i can learn to be a better person, for myself.

It's been two months and yet I have not move on.