Mine is just crush though.

I was in love with my housemate, although I know he can't stand to be lonely and he likes to flirt around. But for some reason, I always feel that we have connection.

Sadly, what I hear from our friends (secretly) that he's not into me. I've tried doing things for him like hoping he is touched but to avail when a guy is not into me, he is really not into me.

Few days ago, at our common friends gathering, I found out that he was flirting with a PRC ex colleague (she's somehow younger than me) despite the numerous times he said that PRC is not his cup of tea. The same night, when we walked home, he was like babbling about his house chores, and me being pissed somehow blurted out 'Go and find your f***ing PRC girl to do for you'. From there, we stop talking to each other, to the extent me avoiding to see him around the house by keeping myself busy. He may be even thinking what the f*** is wrong with me to throw tantrum like that.

He even dated her the following day just to get things clear but I don't know what's the outcome and don't even want to know about the outcome. Right now, we have not been talking. After thinking for three long days, I should just patch up because since we are staying together and hang out often, just don't want to lose a friend.

Will keep myself busy to forget the past with him though. It may not be easy but I know I can make it through.

You are right, I did thought of moving out before but there's other housemate I have to consider since our contract will be ending by this mid year.