QUOTE(-yl- @ Aug 1 2013, 08:08 PM)
i tried b4. i thought i start to recover. i told some of my close fren. 1 of my fren ask: "y? what happen? u 2 look very ok. still trying to say good things about him, told me maybe he is XXX, YYY, u both still can be together etc etc." end up, tat nite i couldn't sleep again. i think bukan-bukan. sad sad sad.
i dun wan to lie to my fren. i hope they wont ask. when i'm ok a bit, i will think of a way to tell them.
my pass relationship still haunting me now and then. everyday, i have different thought, i will sad sad sad, heartache heartache heartache, i will comfort myself, think think think. will relieve a bit. so at night i can sleep. keep repeating everyday. at 1st, i thought i will feel better if i angry, ignore him, scold him. i feel suffer. then suddenly i thought it will be better if we still fren. i ask whether we can be fren again, he said ya, but d way he shows me is like dun wan fren with me. i feel suffer again. i know i shouldn't think, but i can't control myself.
most of the time i have no appetite to eat. skip lunch, skip dinner. eat a little. i know i shouldn't be like this. but...
I understand your feeling. Truly. It just the same to me for past few month. My gf even work same cmpany with me and have underground relationship with my department colleague. Sad, can't eat, can't sleep, scare, worry, think, many more.
But if you don't brave yourself. You suffer even more. If the relationship is over, pass it. Friend or not, not decide by now. Let future decide for you. We don't put the blame on who now. But just remind yourself that those was history and now is future.
Wether your friend tell you got chance or not, advise or laugh or whatever. Just face it, tell them is over.