Broke up with my 9 year long girlfriend during Christmas 2014... It's been 2 weeks since then, but my heart still hurts like hell...

We have been together for 9 long years and had a lot of memorable moments together. But we do have some problems between us, especially on the communication and commitment part. I do not blame her at all for suggesting this break up because I knew I played a part in causing this to happen to. I guess after so long of uncertainties, she just told me that she fell out of love for me and no longer has a thing for me. Furthermore, she admitted that she did had a crush on someone from her office, which I believed escalated this issue and problem. That's why we broke up in the end.

But she really wanted us to remain friends, to keep in touch and keep each other updated. She said I am still someone special to her, just that not as a lover or partner. But I really could not accept that, after all I went through with her, being downgraded to just a normal friend is really hard for me.

What I really wanted to do was for us to give us another shot at this relationship. I really love her a lot and I really couldn't envision my future without her in it. But how does one patch up a relationship when the spark has already gone? I still love her, but to her, there's no more feelings involved. I really don't know how to give us a shot at this even though that's what I really want.

Breaking up really hurts a lot... I really want to let it go and move on but till now, I am still hang up on this...