hmm since everyone so into it let me just share my bid here.

broke up last friday.

dont ask me why we broke up. i have no idea as she had called for it. apparently said that she feels unhappy. funny thing is i didnt feel that way. we've been together over 2 years and i am very much convince that is the one for me.

1) i'm not the kind of guy who would even think about marriage or even the one. out of all my relationships, i've never felt so sure before. for those 2 years, i keep reminding myself, my search is over, and i've always been happy and contented with what i have.

2) she was from a fairly fortunate family financial wise. hence i get the "i'm the princess" or "golden spoon in mouth" attitude from her. i took it in and of course since i loved her, it's only natural that i give in and let it be.

she didnt believe in having 2 people forking out money for a house so my first respond was...ok... i need to earn more money to be able to afford to pay of the installment alone. i was earning slightly on the low side back then so i had to pull a lot of effort in getting where i am now.

2nd criteria: she wants to travel overseas at least once a year. first year together we didnt mange much so we just got a road trip to penang and ipoh. 2nd year, we went australia and taiwan.

i'm not complaining or anything, i do feel happy to see her filled with joy.

3) she restricts me from quite a number of stuff mainly like smoking. she told me if i were to continue to smoke, we can never get married as she cannot accept. ok fine....i have been smoking over 16 years. believe me i tried to quit a few times but end up failing. i restrained myself and push myself for her. up till today i've succeeded.

i felt betrayed though. after having worked so hard and even now registered a company for side businesses. yea it's true with work and business, i do not even have time for myself. even online gamings like WoW i had to quit...but it's a small matter now.

monday to friday, office hours in work, after office hours, delivery to customers for business purposes. Saturday whole day i commit myself to her.
sunday is where i rest at home. note that my schedule is being this way is coz she lives in the other end of town from me and it takes about 1 hour to drive there. sometimes even 2 depending on traffic conditions.

now she said i do not love her. i do not pamper her, i do not put her number 1...everything i've done, it's coz i want to give her what she wants in the future. ironic to see the hard work being planted here had gone like this.

i started drinking and smoking again no doubt. i no longer see the purpose of upholding my promise or my end. my health condition gotten worse too. all i can feel now is anger, sadness, and regret >.<

sorry though for the long post. i'll live through.. i hope