Hi guys, just posting here and looking for someone to talk to.

long story short, we were on and off for the past 2 years, without any serious commitment on her part.

I haven't contact her for around 8 months or so until the past few weeks and she back to her previous self where she would flirt around with me and so on.

We finally met each other last weekend to celebrate my birthday. I still find myself harbouring a certain amount of feelings of her.

Finally i told her to fly kite if she wasn't serious about us and I'm not willing to go through the same sh1t ever again.

the truth is

i have never truly grief her loss, even during the period where we lost contact.

There are periods that I would want to wind up and break down and cry, but i just couldn't do that.

I guessed yesterday was the climax of my pent up frustration with her, and i realized that for the most part there was a deep seething anger within me has reached a boiling point.

As for how am I coping with it right now, I couldn't put in into words. I just feel numb and would like to cast away any thoughts of her for the moment.

I just felt that I have wasted the last 2 years of my life, for nothing.

I have wasted 7years for another girl= same shit
another 2 years for this girl= shit

i dunno if i have many more 2 years to waste.

This post has been edited by Tyler__Durden: Jun 16 2010, 11:57 AM

I did for the past 8 months doing my own thing and focusing on my career and my life. I could say I was doing quite well at that. I did not however held a grudge against her on what happened, it's all in the past.

For the most part I'm angry about people weaving in and out of my life as if I'm a nobody. I don't mind being friends as long as both sides agreed on not to cross the line beyond that.

Hence the anger was pointed towards her lack of respect of me as a person who's trying to lead a decent normal life.

This post has been edited by Tyler__Durden: Jun 16 2010, 12:10 PM

I'm trying, thanks for the advice.

It sucks to be a person with photographic memory.

I hope so, but i'm losing faith.

I don't deserved this.

Thanks bro, after a time of self reflection I think I can already move on.

I'm glad I can start my day today with a smile on my face, hopefully I'll get my confidence back as soon as possible.

Thanks again to others as well for taking your time to give me some response.

Do all, or have somebody change your fb password, and deactivate it.