May 19 2008, 12:13 AM
QUOTE(crisboy @ May 18 2008, 09:28 PM)
Hi guys...
About me...
Name: Steven
Age: 24
Height: 173CM
Weight: 76
Hair: Center part long hair.
Face: Wearing spec
Skin: normal brown
Picture: http://profiles.friendster.com/14120780 (Laugh all you want)
Apr 12 she broke up with me at 10:32am when i was working. she just msg me and told me its over...
(Things i did wrong)
i raise my voice when she lied to me and she told me that she cant tahan of my attitude already.
(Problem that cause)
She added 2 guys she didt tell me. after login to her acc coz i suspac something.. got 2 new guys.. no offence if only frens but why lie to me when i ask her did she added 2 new guys.. she denied. Thats my anger came in. I mean come on guys you sure angry one ma if she lie to you , its like shes hiding something. If only frens why lie?
(Next 2 days.....)
1.Told my mum i went down to stay with my frens.
2.Went down to KL and find her(She was from KL and im from PG)
3.Strait go to her house saw her house and took a pic told her im here.
4. Night she dosent wanner come back, her mum told me to buzz off coz she told me that she will go other place if i dont go back. Her mum keep crying after seeing me.(I duno)
5. So her mum offerd me a lift to the nearest LRT in Taman university.
6. After got down my fren called me. She ask me that hows everything? didt you get her back? i say no she dosent wanner see me.She says that she has a plan and i say lets hear it while standing at the LRT place.
She told me to go back and stay near her place , so i crush in hotel petaling jaya. She told me that tml wake up at 5:00am then hide and wait for her at nearby and dont let her mum see you if not your dead , then i say ok... i take it.. i will do anyting to get back my 5yrs relationship..
7.took a cab earlie in the morning at 5am.Wait for her until 8am only she came out. Her mum got out at 7am fatching her bro and sis to school. So when she was comming out i blocked her car. I told her can she fatch me to the nearest bus stand? she refuse to fatch me. after i ask a few times she let me in.. so i told her that can she forgive me and for the last chance i wont make the same mistake again i have learned my lesson and im sorry.. she refuse to forgive me.. after that she say"now its 8:15am already if you dont get down now i will be late for work and next week i sure say no chance for you if you didt get down from the car. So i get down feeling very relex abit. The worst came.
8. Got back to PG and next week i called her and msg her but no reply.
Then finally after a few times i tried she picked up. She told me that 'you know that day i told you to come and find me in next week is becoz i want you to get down from the car only , If not you wont get down the car". After hearing this... crush in to milion and millon pieces.
9. Im already comming to KL to continue my study and she knows it.. but now she called me to stay back in PG dont need to come to KL anymore. But i wanted to come. Befor the qurral she even told me that we will go buy new shirts and pants and etc when i come to KL. Now all has been broken and already 4 weeks like hell. KL samor dun have much frens. My frens called me to stay back at PG but i refuse.. coz i tot that there is still light and i can pull her back.. but now... its all gone.
Nearly NEARLY KILL myself... suiside. But thank god my mum was at home... so i didt do it. If my parents were out they would see my body.
This is my life now..
1.Everynight i cry myself to sleep.
2.Cant eat, sleep, work, study etc.
3.Lost 7kg since broke up. now (76kg) fat? see my pic lo
4.Until now still keep thinking of her i miss her so much.
5.Already 5 yrs im with her...(Far distance but got find her everyweek)
6.Studying now in APIIT and she knows.
7.Alone in there in the hostel duno do wat even i have my own laptop.
8.Play games? im a gamer myself but there is no mood to play no frens to play.
9.Have very less frens in APIIT coz only 10 ppl in that class why? i duno.
10.Sad and sad and very sad very lonely but this is what i choose i have to bare about it.
Just to express out my feelings here coz there is no fren wanner hear me out... if you all also dont wanner hear then nvm leave me alone ...its ok with me...
Cheers.... but sad.
Ever heard the phrase 'past build the future'? About me...
Name: Steven
Age: 24
Height: 173CM
Weight: 76
Hair: Center part long hair.
Face: Wearing spec
Skin: normal brown
Picture: http://profiles.friendster.com/14120780 (Laugh all you want)
Apr 12 she broke up with me at 10:32am when i was working. she just msg me and told me its over...
(Things i did wrong)
i raise my voice when she lied to me and she told me that she cant tahan of my attitude already.
(Problem that cause)
She added 2 guys she didt tell me. after login to her acc coz i suspac something.. got 2 new guys.. no offence if only frens but why lie to me when i ask her did she added 2 new guys.. she denied. Thats my anger came in. I mean come on guys you sure angry one ma if she lie to you , its like shes hiding something. If only frens why lie?
(Next 2 days.....)
1.Told my mum i went down to stay with my frens.
2.Went down to KL and find her(She was from KL and im from PG)
3.Strait go to her house saw her house and took a pic told her im here.
4. Night she dosent wanner come back, her mum told me to buzz off coz she told me that she will go other place if i dont go back. Her mum keep crying after seeing me.(I duno)
5. So her mum offerd me a lift to the nearest LRT in Taman university.
6. After got down my fren called me. She ask me that hows everything? didt you get her back? i say no she dosent wanner see me.She says that she has a plan and i say lets hear it while standing at the LRT place.
She told me to go back and stay near her place , so i crush in hotel petaling jaya. She told me that tml wake up at 5:00am then hide and wait for her at nearby and dont let her mum see you if not your dead , then i say ok... i take it.. i will do anyting to get back my 5yrs relationship..
7.took a cab earlie in the morning at 5am.Wait for her until 8am only she came out. Her mum got out at 7am fatching her bro and sis to school. So when she was comming out i blocked her car. I told her can she fatch me to the nearest bus stand? she refuse to fatch me. after i ask a few times she let me in.. so i told her that can she forgive me and for the last chance i wont make the same mistake again i have learned my lesson and im sorry.. she refuse to forgive me.. after that she say"now its 8:15am already if you dont get down now i will be late for work and next week i sure say no chance for you if you didt get down from the car. So i get down feeling very relex abit. The worst came.
8. Got back to PG and next week i called her and msg her but no reply.
Then finally after a few times i tried she picked up. She told me that 'you know that day i told you to come and find me in next week is becoz i want you to get down from the car only , If not you wont get down the car". After hearing this... crush in to milion and millon pieces.
9. Im already comming to KL to continue my study and she knows it.. but now she called me to stay back in PG dont need to come to KL anymore. But i wanted to come. Befor the qurral she even told me that we will go buy new shirts and pants and etc when i come to KL. Now all has been broken and already 4 weeks like hell. KL samor dun have much frens. My frens called me to stay back at PG but i refuse.. coz i tot that there is still light and i can pull her back.. but now... its all gone.
Nearly NEARLY KILL myself... suiside. But thank god my mum was at home... so i didt do it. If my parents were out they would see my body.
This is my life now..
1.Everynight i cry myself to sleep.
2.Cant eat, sleep, work, study etc.
3.Lost 7kg since broke up. now (76kg) fat? see my pic lo
4.Until now still keep thinking of her i miss her so much.
5.Already 5 yrs im with her...(Far distance but got find her everyweek)
6.Studying now in APIIT and she knows.
7.Alone in there in the hostel duno do wat even i have my own laptop.
8.Play games? im a gamer myself but there is no mood to play no frens to play.
9.Have very less frens in APIIT coz only 10 ppl in that class why? i duno.
10.Sad and sad and very sad very lonely but this is what i choose i have to bare about it.
Just to express out my feelings here coz there is no fren wanner hear me out... if you all also dont wanner hear then nvm leave me alone ...its ok with me...
Cheers.... but sad.
If she say, she can't tahan your attitude, what does that mean? Does it mean, just because of this problem she straight away ask for break up? I tell you the truth, 5 years in your relationship, probably for about 4 years you were never 'there' for her because you know why? She is holding up against you for so long and waiting up for the right moment to tell you how she is dissatisfied about you and your attitude. She might keep all the fuss and dissatisfactions about you but refuses to tell you because she doesn't want to hurt you, well you know....because we always thought LOVE conquers all which i like to call the romeo-juliet syndrome.
Wrong my friend. No matter what, most couple nowadays will 'kira' with each other partner's bad attitudes regardless whether it is a love relationship or not. The moment when the anger burst out, all the bad things about you will spill out too. She is dissatisfied about you a long time ago. So do yourself a favor, ask yourself what and why she is not happy about me? Its not just the current situation but also past situation. This, you figure out yourself then only you will understand the whole meaning and the reason of your break up.
Lying and cheating? Well, of course its sinful and unethical? But i wonder why you want to make a big fuss about it? If people lie to you, assume the person is rationale, what do you think the reason is? Could it be maybe you're thinking too much thats why she refuses to tell you? Could it be, she wants to let you know everything is ok? Could it be also, she know you would not 'be' on her side and not hear her problems always? Maybe you thought all these while you were always on her side, but what if she thought it wasn't? Love and communication is a two way street. Remember this always. You too will lie for a greater good or simply to avoid your other find out what is it you're hiding. You too will do the same.
5 years of relationship...you have to understand its already sour. So how can you make sour turn into sweet again? First of all change yourself to a better person that suit her needs. You may thought you already be good enough but you also could be 'dreaming'. Wake up and 'improve' your self in many aspects that could benefit you in the future. For example, learn how to treat woman better. If i were you, i quit blaming her and start to change my thoughts. In other words, if she wants it that way, let her be. She is a big girl, i believe she too knows how to handle her own life. The thing that you don't know, that she also now could be still hurting inside and sometimes missing you too. Trust me. Negative feedback from her doesn't mean that she is already 'over' it. There are times she will be trying hard to forget you but its not that simple especially for woman whee they tend to rethink back the good and memories about their past relationship. Its biological proven.
No point showing in this thread how 'kasihan' are you. You will never get sympathy. Some say move on, there are many fish in the sea, but unfortunately the aquarium in your head only got one fish isn't it? 5 years man. Its not easy to throw away just like that. Starting today, stop crying and learn how to 'love' yourself better and for her own good as well. If she wants to be back with you, she wants to be with the person better than your current state now and the person who can offer to 'give' more to her but at the same time knows how to love himself better too. She will never wants to be with the person who she fed up against last time.
About adding the guy into her lists. If i am you, maybe i will ask too. But not to the extent if she don't reply me truthfully, i have to keep bugging her and ask her to tell the truth. She don't want to tell, then fine. Give her a space to indulge. The more you bugged her though no matter how nice you did, still she will think, you're 'controlling' her. It's already proven that she feels insecure about your action. Girls hate the feeling of insecure compare to guys.
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