Hi guys...

About me...
Name: Steven
Age: 24
Height: 173CM
Weight: 76
Hair: Center part long hair.
Face: Wearing spec
Skin: normal brown
Picture: http://profiles.friendster.com/14120780


Apr 12 she broke up with me at 10:32am when i was working. she just msg me and told me its over...

(Things i did wrong)
i raise my voice when she lied to me and she told me that she cant tahan of my attitude already.

(Problem that cause)
She added 2 guys she didt tell me. after login to her acc coz i suspac something.. got 2 new guys.. no offence if only frens but why lie to me when i ask her did she added 2 new guys.. she denied. Thats my anger came in. I mean come on guys you sure angry one ma if she lie to you , its like shes hiding something. If only frens why lie?

(Next 2 days.....)

1.Told my mum i went down to stay with my frens.

2.Went down to KL and find her(She was from KL and im from PG)

3.Strait go to her house saw her house and took a pic told her im here.

4. Night she dosent wanner come back, her mum told me to buzz off coz she told me that she will go other place if i dont go back. Her mum keep crying after seeing me.(I duno)

5. So her mum offerd me a lift to the nearest LRT in Taman university.

6. After got down my fren called me. She ask me that hows everything? didt you get her back? i say no she dosent wanner see me.She says that she has a plan and i say lets hear it while standing at the LRT place.
She told me to go back and stay near her place , so i crush in hotel petaling jaya. She told me that tml wake up at 5:00am then hide and wait for her at nearby and dont let her mum see you if not your dead , then i say ok... i take it.. i will do anyting to get back my 5yrs relationship..

7.took a cab earlie in the morning at 5am.Wait for her until 8am only she came out. Her mum got out at 7am fatching her bro and sis to school. So when she was comming out i blocked her car. I told her can she fatch me to the nearest bus stand? she refuse to fatch me. after i ask a few times she let me in.. so i told her that can she forgive me and for the last chance i wont make the same mistake again i have learned my lesson and im sorry.. she refuse to forgive me.. after that she say"now its 8:15am already if you dont get down now i will be late for work and next week i sure say no chance for you if you didt get down from the car. So i get down feeling very relex abit. The worst came.

8. Got back to PG and next week i called her and msg her but no reply.
Then finally after a few times i tried she picked up. She told me that 'you know that day i told you to come and find me in next week is becoz i want you to get down from the car only , If not you wont get down the car". After hearing this... crush in to milion and millon pieces.

9. Im already comming to KL to continue my study and she knows it.. but now she called me to stay back in PG dont need to come to KL anymore. But i wanted to come. Befor the qurral she even told me that we will go buy new shirts and pants and etc when i come to KL. Now all has been broken and already 4 weeks like hell. KL samor dun have much frens. My frens called me to stay back at PG but i refuse.. coz i tot that there is still light and i can pull her back.. but now... its all gone.


Nearly NEARLY KILL myself... suiside. But thank god my mum was at home... so i didt do it. If my parents were out they would see my body.

This is my life now..

1.Everynight i cry myself to sleep.
2.Cant eat, sleep, work, study etc.
3.Lost 7kg since broke up. now (76kg) fat? see my pic lo
4.Until now still keep thinking of her i miss her so much.
5.Already 5 yrs im with her...(Far distance but got find her everyweek)
6.Studying now in APIIT and she knows.
7.Alone in there in the hostel duno do wat even i have my own laptop.
8.Play games? im a gamer myself but there is no mood to play no frens to play.
9.Have very less frens in APIIT coz only 10 ppl in that class why? i duno.
10.Sad and sad and very sad very lonely but this is what i choose i have to bare about it.

Just to express out my feelings here coz there is no fren wanner hear me out... if you all also dont wanner hear then nvm leave me alone ...its ok with me...



Cheers.... but sad.


Update 2015:

OMG!!!! All this post is vintage man!! I look back again at my post I laugh out loud at my stupidness!! I already have move forward far far away now.. Right now by looking back at what I have post... I feel like wanner slap the 6 years back of me. Bah.. How stupid I am wanner die that time. Farking stupid!!!

Update: Now I found a better one which cares for me so much.. When I'm down or she is down we help each other up. We are getting married this year.. If I have done something stupid that time I won't have this lovely wife anymore.

To the guys and gals out there, there is always someone waiting for you out there, it's only the matter of time he/she comes to you.

So my advice is don't give up on life!! Dare to take that step further in life, this is all part of learning process in life.

To the guys/gals that helped me in this forum, I thank you all for your support and help me up and be a better man.. Better man I mean new hair style and buffed up!!! Hehe.. Thank you all. Looking forward to my wedding. 😊😄

Sorry for my bad England. doh.gif sweat.gif notworthy.gif

Still trying to improve my English as we speak every now and then. rclxub.gif


Well about her.. hm.. i am not so sure actually, i have lost all contact with her. A few months after the breakup.

Maybe she also moved on and got someone? Maybe she has already learned something from our relationship and she treated her other half better?


PS: My Humble Advice To all my brothers and sisters out there with a broken heart.. please listen. Move on and the right guy/gal will come to you. You may think it wont happen now but sooner or later the right 1 will come.. unless you very picky la.. If like that wait until you die also no people come.. -.-

For the dudes/guys please grow some balls to meet girls(Yes i have no balls at all meeting up girls, but hey! i manage to get an average sweet girl who cares for me),

For the girls don't be too picky, if he is caring good and nice to you and YOU have some feel in him just go with the flow and you wont miss out the best guys out there, there is still lots of good guys out there, it's just you have to move out to the world and see it for yourself.

Just remember guys.. Important!!

God helps those who help themselves

This post has been edited by crisboy: Jun 10 2024, 11:01 AM

ai.... how to heal this sickness of mine?

its like when im with her im carrying 3 rocks.. after she left me im carrying 6 rocks and i lost my legs....the half of my body gone . Im crawling now with my hands on the floor with 9 rocks on my back...

Outsider plz read properly .... when i ask her she denied and lie to me.. if your GF lie to you wont you be angry? and if frens only why hide about it? read carefully plz

control wat?? just ask only and in a good way... look if your gf meet someone and you see it with your own eyes you wont ask her??? come on man command sense.... why choose lie?? other then tell me the truth...?

Ya maybe it gathers gathers up then explode... maybe.. my bad my fault.


This post has been edited by crisboy: May 18 2008, 10:10 PM

means that when she is with me my burden is not that much.... when she leave my burden gets alot worst...not to say depend on her too much but she helped me alot....


misayew.. its ok if avoid unnessasry argument but after i found out and you know i know it already why still lie leh??? ai.... tell the truth is better right? if your kids lie to you and you found out after that, when you asked them and they say 'no papa i didt do it' but you already know the truth... your kid lie to you, how would you feel when your kid lie 2 times to you..worst still your own GF...

This post has been edited by crisboy: May 18 2008, 11:41 PM

erm.... yea you guys are right... thanks for all the advice guys..

I know im weak... but hey if a human dosent have sadness and hurt they wont be 'human'
You think that 5 yrs feelings can trow away just like that? and almost everyweek im there with her.

Pity... self pityness...? yea maybe.. maybe miss her too much..

This post has been edited by crisboy: May 19 2008, 01:05 AM

sometimes i really like to earse it totally ... but i cant.. someone hit me to forget all .... ai.. you all are correct... but finding a new one? haha cant la.... im not handsome, im not tall im not rich etc...

hahaha.... laughing at myself.... too

for wat?

..........im not that dirty guy la...

man im ok .....thanks for the advice thou

haha i dun have much frens in KL

i just cant walk to a gal or guy say that hi can i be your fren???? all run away

lol.......haha 7 ppl in class only LOL.... but better then nothing i guess


This post has been edited by crisboy: May 19 2008, 03:34 AM

thanks suiteng.. and all of you guys.. still heart broken but laugh only from the mouth... but in the heart the pain is still there...

haha... all here to chat lo LOL... hehe

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Added on May 21, 2008, 2:43 amhope... will heal faster....soon

This post has been edited by crisboy: May 21 2008, 02:43 AM

ahaha.. funny.. glad you all like it..

Guys guys chill.. haha yea penisama is correct too.. lol Anyway its been very happy and good that in here alot of ppl support each other.. I feeling better already , well yeah time heals everything. After joining classes and work comes it keeps me busy and i tent to forget my pain. BUT sometimes.. yea sometimes, she does really suddenly pop up in my brain when im free like nothing to do that time.

Well i also think befor that if that girl dosent love you or didt appriciate wat the things that i do for her.. then nvm lo. I know i had try my best to get her back and even beg from her but it dosent work. So guess its time to move on lo. Find another that i wont repeat that mistake again and love her as much as i do. I really learn the mistake that i had done.

Trying to keep it cool la. Trying my best lo. Even write a blog and express my feelings out also. But overall thanks guys you all really do help me alot and you have my thanks for everyone here which helped me alot. Thank you.

This post has been edited by crisboy: May 26 2008, 06:45 PM

OMG!!!! All this post is vintage man!! I look back again at my post I laugh out loud at my stupidness!! I already have move forward far far away now.. Right now by looking back at what I have post... I feel like wanner slap the 6 years back of me. Bah.. How stupid I am wanner die that time. Farking stupid!!!

Update: Now I found a better one which cares for me so much.. When I'm down or she is down we help each other up. We are getting married this year.. If I have done something stupid that time I won't have this lovely wife anymore.

To the guys and gals out there, there is always someone waiting for you out there, it's only the matter of time he/she comes to you.

So my advice is don't give up on life!! Dare to take that step further in life, this is all part of learning process in life.

To the guys/gals that helped me in this forum, I thank you all for your support and help me up and be a better man.. Better man I mean new hair style and buffed up!!! Hehe.. Thank you all. Looking forward to my wedding. 😊😄

This post has been edited by crisboy: Jan 6 2015, 10:00 PM