Okay...this is either bullcrap made simply for attention/boredom or TS is lost...very very VERY lost. Everything I read so far from you is all so wrong. You are just 14 years old and your "BF" is probably or is a pedophile. You got a long way to go in life and you seem to be leaning towards a life which I believe gets you screwed...literally. So stop dreaming and get some help from professional counselors and just face your family. Better to face them now and have chance of having a good future than face them later when it might be too late.

So if you are for real, please wake up. This is not your typical drama where most things have a happy ending, this is life. You can choose to cut of relationships that were there for 14-15 years, or simply cut one delusional relationship that will never happen.

In short, go get some real help =)