It's surprising you let your bf walk all over you. Do you have no sense of respect to yourself? (No offense, but it's a valid question on my part. If you mind.. then it's fine not to answer ^__^) Anyone would take advantage on anybody if they have the chance to. I sincerely hope that you can come to your senses and start appreciating yourself because your bf obviously don't. You deserve someone better, girl.

You need determination. Nobody can help you come to your senses, girl. Only yourself can do that. Take a break and re-evaluate your own life, yourself and your relationship. If you are going to give in to 'something that crop up and make me change my mind' excuses, then you will fall one day from the depression of living in a lie. Be true to yourself. Put your feet down sternly if you have make up your mind. You only live once, how many regrets do you wish to bear for the rest of your life?

@lice~~
I am glad it you are okay now or at the very least, better. If you need to talk you can always PM me. Of course if you don't mind my .. err straight forward way Oh and don't bother on revenge. It waste way too much time, oxygen and effort. He's simply not worth anymore of your attention (good or bad). Go enjoy your life and live for yourself. After all, we must love ourselves before we can love others.

Cheesenium
Sometimes it's not about understanding a girl (I am a girl and I don't understand them). It's about looking at the situation and understanding how things work. Often people who are too blinded by love and affections fails to look into the most logical thing, even if it's right in front of their eyes. The logic is really simple, when someone starts avoiding you at great length (guy or girl) chances are, they don't want to be with you. Simple as that. You can try convincing them, but if they are adamant, then it's time to move on. You can blame them for being hard to understand or even convince yourself she's playing hard to get, anything, but it's not going to change anything.

(p/s: I personally find it annoying to avoid people who are chasing after you just because you don't want to recuperate their feeling. Just tell them already, it's so much more efficient! He won't bug you any longer and you don't have to get fed up of him not getting your signal right.)

The point of being in a relationship is to share your life (to a certain extent). What's the point of having a significant other when he/she is not the first person you share your life with? It does not make them any different from having a friend, wouldn't it? If so, why set into a relationship?