Maybe your outlook in life is the point of your stress. You are in your late 40s, I would say that you would have pass your prime and the height of your competitiveness. Maybe would well to consider to coast towards your retirement. Why do you put pressure on yourself as if you are meant for more ? When you use the term dead end, it tells me you are looking to climb the ladder further.

I have always find it puzzling why people look at accounting as one of the top desirable profession. Now AI is one of the prime tech to replace accountants.