you gonna pay a price if you refuses to let go of a trauma or someone go away in your thought. I used to be extremely beta when it comes to love.

What is love? For me it was basically an attachment that you could not stop thinking about someone and overly obsessed with him or her. You didn't realize just by the fact you obsessing over the person means you're insecure from the start. You probably didn't get the same amount of love from own parents

At least for my memory, my mom used to call me I'm a piece of useless garbage. Along the way of interacting with myself and all the females I hung out, I slowly regain back an objective truth, which is I don't need to prove to someone that whether I'm good or not, cause I'm already good enough.

This is also one of key essence of Buddhism, every human beings on the planet is essentially complete.