what to do. Just hope my 4 ekor didnt repeat my mistake.

I really do not recommend marrying first love. Also will definitely have a proper talk with my children regarding expectation vs reality in a relationship. DO NOT ignore red flags.

We didn't understand love vs affection. We were too "in love" to realize we are not compatible with each other. Fate brought us together and we are too blissful when we went along with the flow until we realize what we thought was love is not actually what it is. By the time we realize we already gone too far, and we are now too indifferent to even bother to separate. Too indifferent to try to find the spark. Just cruise along while raising the kids with our best effort. Feels like u are stuck in traffic jam, but u go through it irregardless. Not like u can say "fuk it" then u-turn and drive away. U still has to endure it because quitting is impossible.