ahhhh this is really sad...
i didnt dump her. she dumped me. reasons given by her varies... to some reasons, i would admit is my lacking but to some, she is kinda twisting my words, which i dont understand. i agree i might not give her enough emotional support but i support in other way, example if you are into some games which i dont like, i dont go but i support by buying the equipment for you, for her, she feels i dont support her at first but support her later. i dont support her at first coz everytime she came back with wounds, this really sadden me when she hurts.

alot of things not that i dont wan to provide, im still learning. whenever she cries with problems, my first instinct is to solve the problem for her but she said i always give solution but didnt provide emotional support. i said i will learn but this kind of thing is new to me, so i need time to learn. whenever she is sick or having issue or even just hungry, i will try to be there but she owes say no need. i feel a bit confuse that one side, you asked me to be there for you emotionally but when i try to be there, you said no need.

i know her, she is like really happy after break up.
i am not sure if defame is  the right word but after break up, i only heard from my colleagues, she once cried in the office cafeteria in front of all my colleagues telling them how bad i treated her. i was kinda shocked. i am not good but i didnt treat her that bad. her definition of bad is i accidentally joke a bit about her, she will said i fierce her or scold her. if i heard sth surpringly, nomally we will react with higher tone, she will said why am i so fierce? i told her, im not fierce, just this thing is kinda shocking to me, i was like WHAT?????? this is her definition of bad to her.

although im angry at her some times, i dont really thought of break up, to me i will try to accept her lackings. but when she broke up with me, i feel she didnt give me a chance  to explain or a chance to rectify my lackings... im not having third party or scold her badly or hit her, etc... just that when u r angry, definitely the tone will be higher but not to the extend shout at her.

i still love her now but i think she has forgotten me.