How old are you TS if mind asking ? Early 20/30 or late 20/30.

By the way as another member said you need a psychologist/counsellor/therapist because physiatrist will just keep giving you pills to temporarily rest your mind. You need to solve the root cause to this. If relationship is the issue, perhaps look for couple therapy. I wish you well.

I went to my usual GP and was prescribed Xanax. I am almost to the point of abusing it because the dosage given to me no longer works. I don't really depend on it now because I still have to face my issues the next day.

I am in my late 30s here and dealing with stagnant life (in every aspect)
I feel like I have to live this way on autopilot until my last breathe for my sanity. Sometimes when the body and mind can no longer take it, you will be numb automatically as a way to cope.

We may not have the same issue but you are not alone.
I am not a normal person. I am going to be 39y this year with ntg. Life has been stagnant in every aspect. Feels like trapped since born. Often wish I could be diff like everyone else.. achieving some milestones in their life. The only way out is to accept it is what it is by changing perspective or just wasting away..
I am in between and it is a struggle.

Thank you too.
If the decision or things are life changing events (at least for me) then I guess it will take time or not.
I have been in this position for the longest time. Sometime I feel like if I don't make any changes then I will live a life like this until death takes me. Therefore it isn't a normalcy. Other ppl have it easily.
Been to counsellor for almost a year. Not sure whether is my issue or her but things are still stagnant.
I am still the same before and after meeting her. Like a high schooler only broken and older.

Counsellor that I went to only listen to me venting. When things get stuck for so long, it may become permanent. I am quite resenting how my life turns out. I cant blame anyone as it is my choice. I have a choice and I chose to stay in it. So I only get to pick "suck it up or leave"

Yes. Invalidation. My friends did it more.

2 decades have been the same. Not joking or even pessimistic because this is fact for me. I look older and maybe a bit mature but other than everything is the same. I am not moving up in career. I took a more relaxing job after my first job. Too relaxing isn't so much better because our pay isn't on par with inflation.
I have been working out for some time but not seeing any improvement. Perhaps I should take it that going to the gym consistently is an improvement.

Is okay to explore less stressful career if all these while you have been stressful with your job. Not good long term. But too free like me is not good either. I used to stress out with my first job. I had anxiety every morning before going to work. But now, I would like to have a balance work life.

Good to be men. At least they could choose to date someone their age if they dont want kids or younger if they want kids.

For women, only older men. The same age ones would usually go for younger women..

21 days have passed since NY. Everything is still the same. I still dont have the courage to do the things I wanted to do out of fear. I am growing tired, demotivated. I feel hollow at my worst. Even Xanax cant help me to sleep. The things that got me to sleep is by overthinking the whole day.

Thank you sis. Doing slightly better today or perhaps I am numb completely because my life is still the same.

I feel like I cant entirely have feelings anymore. Going to meet my counsellor again this Friday. I a not sure whether I need clarity, closure, acceptance etc. All I know is my life will be exactly the same until my last breathe. This is not a self fulfilling prophecy because there are things I cannot change or unable to change. It is also my choice. I do not know why I made this choice because I know it will lead unfulfilling life. I wish I am like everyone else. Have more courage and face my fear. I am such a coward. I am an already old and not a high schooler

I work out for 2 - 3 times a week. I am not a hardcore. I cant even focus during workout or complete a full set without looking at my phone. I didnt take xanax everyday because I know I need a larger dose now to have effect on me. Around 2mg and above.

My focus is shoulder, abs and glutes. So far not doing anything with my shoulder. 80% abs and 20% glutes. I cant find the motivation yet. It will take me some time because I dont see the meaning of working out aside by keeping me alive for several more years.