Reporting in.

Can't rest. Wanna take one day off from operating I will keep thinking that one day revenue can go into my son's education fund or emergency fund or for a rainy day to pay for the staff wages incase another stupid virus hits or I am down with an illness.

Honestly getting tired with so much responsibility on my shoulders and no one to vent to

Just two months join this new company. Met with lots of disrespect and harassment from colleagues. Always kept low profile and carry a polite demeanour at office. All my experience working from Sdn Bhd to Berhad, never encountered such hostility before.

This Sunday night my heart keeps pounding to clock-in tomorrow out of anxiety. On my knees already but cannot throw letter yet. Bills to pay, loan to service, mouth to feed.

Deep down I really feel like want to retaliate back to them, not using words but violence. Lucky I am able to reason to myself, not snapped and go ape shit. Shit like this really took toll on my mental well being. I cannot understand why some people want to disturb other rice bowl, just cannot process their reasoning.

Other than venting here, already took action by looking for other opportunities. Pity the pay is good and the location is nearer to my home.

What I did was get a sugarbaby 22 years younger.

At the same time still continue to date until I found my current GF.