After my friend broke up with her boyfriend, I start to fall in love with her. Occasionally she would give me mixed signals, so I decided to confess to know where I stand. She rejected me politely and clearly, saying we could still be friends but I should never fall for her as she only sees me as a friend.

I tried, hoping I can suppress my feelings back to how when she had a boyfriend. But every time we see each other, I fall for her again. I don't think I'm ready for platonic relationship with her just yet.

Should I cut all contact with her, until I'm 100% ready for a purely platonic relationship? And how to tell that I'm 100% ready?

Normal kids I'm ok. Special need kids I have no experience, but from what I heard, it's not easy. She never bring her kids to see me, so I can't gauge our compatibility.
Because the low far outweighs the high. I prefer the boring days where I'm not chasing anyone, just minding my own business.

How is the chasing part... fun?

Sure it's fun for a few hours when I get to see her. But after that it's days of waiting for her text/call that may never come. It's painful.

Kinda. If I'm good at this I won't be here asking questions. Please do share any tips you have.