Wait a minute I thought everyone here actually the same person in /k replying to themselves?

who to miss when i am not really anybody to the person i care about? lol
finding a special someone is unlike buying car i like, i can afford it and the car is mine.

Money is meaningless to get someone to actually care/love me. Face and/or charisma are the most important key factors, and i have neither.

Close to 40 and my career is going well without much effort, thank you for the good luck. But am i happy? No, seriously no, go back to a double storey house with me alone. Drive a nice car, so what? traveling is a chores and forgetable memories at the end etc.

During the night time, i may even depressed until thinking why i was born?
Lol.

Not born rich haha

sounds a bit delusional. but in secondary school there is one girl, and one of her friends who i am also friends with, told me to go confess to her because he thinks that she is into me. basis is that she said she likes smart ppl, and she said that im a "smart people".

what i think actually happened, was that a year before i was a bit desperate and tried interacting with literally any girl that i was semi interested in. so i talked stupid to her a bit. like i just said "i want get girlfriend within this year" or something like that, and also showed her some video game stuff when i thougth she would be interested.

then after that i not so desperate already then lazy talk so much. then maybe she think what happen to this guy, suddenly interested in what she "lost".